Revelation

Happy B’day Dear Friend

2009-01-29T05:49:00.000-08:00

Here I am with yet another song
A silent whisper for the angels to sing along
This is your day, if I may say
I am empty handed on your b’day

I have no presents, I have no cards
I have nothing to offer you
Except my regards

My wish for you is a secret prayer
For God will open doors in my favor

The good Lord will bless and keep you
And will make all your dreams come alive
For he alone will open doors
And make things alright

Happy B’day dear friend
Where ever you may be
Although I am not a part of this day
I can’t stop myself from wishing you
Happy Birthday

It's Going To Be Alright

2009-01-04T23:01:00.000-08:00

Have there been times when you felt lonely?
Have there been times when you felt like giving in?

Have there been times when you no longer had the strength to carry on?

And have there been times when you just felt like dying?

When things around you are put to question

And when you seem to be under the bad light

Take heed and stand for what you believe in

For you aren't liable and you don't have to let go without a fight

It's easy when you have friends who can back you up

Trust you no matter what and remain the same

Fight for you and fight for what you've got

And not pack you up and use you like some old stock

Galling situations surround me

Been cut off like some no good tree

Yet I believe that everything is going to be alright

This forever won't be the plight

This test of your faith will pass

As long you have no doubt about the past

There is nothing to be afraid of or hold grudge against

And you can be sure for everything to outlast

Everything is going to be alright

I am sure it will all work together for good

And no true friendship

Will go without being understood

At Times...

2008-12-10T03:57:00.000-08:00

No longer a foreigner in an unknown turf
I say with poise
You my love ain’t just a choice

Life isn’t easy, life ain’t the same
Every day a struggle
It’s everybody’s game

In times of trouble, in times of pain
We stick together
Knowing there is so much to gain

One thing you ought to know
Is my love for you has grown
Like never before

I got nothing to offer but these words
I hope you realize
You are the song that my heart never denies

Whatever happens I am with you
Through thick and thin
I want you too

This time around I won’t shut you down
When I move about aimlessly
At times of want.

Child abUSE - Could you be of any USE?

2008-11-24T11:43:00.000-08:00

Could you be of any use?

To help prevent child abuse

Let me ask you, first!

Are you aware of what a child goes through?

It could be you or anyone you know

It could be someone who you care or don't care about

Yet it's a child who is abused!

Let not any precious child go through this

Let's act! Let me know?

Together we can fight this

Let us fight for this cause

What is it? Why is it? Who does it? One might ask

Let not your ignorance spoil a Child's life.

Act Now! Let's do it now!

Let me shed some light, if not now, the child will shed its life!

Let me tell you

Let us fight for the Child's fright!

One child tortured with many chores

It hits them at their heart, flesh and bones!

Working in hotels and houses and suffering behind closed doors

Fight Physical abuse

One feeling left out all alone in the cold

Helpless and shattered not knowing where to go

Racial Neglect!

One being molested and threatened

Sexually harassed and beaten

Fight Sexual abuse

One having to hear everything that a child doesn't want to hear

Forced to listen to harsh and filthy words

Caught in the worst trap

Fight Emotional abuse

Its happening I know, I know

Because I've been there! I've seen it! I know for sure

Now, I wish to be the cure.

Let us be a cue for the cure.

I am writing this ode today

To bring out the reality

For us to see

The price an innocent child pays.

Let us act now!

Before it's too late

What ever little effort you take

Would be great

Let our energies focus towards the cause!

Not for anyone, not for you, not for me, not for the society.

But for the CHILD! Let's make their lives better.

Save them from the snares of the devil

Come on now, Let us do this

Let us act now!

Give them a bigger and a brighter future.

Crying In The Rain

2008-09-05T06:17:00.000-07:00

She was small, hardly ten years old
Heard the stories seen them all
She was too young to understand any of this
but she quickly matured before the other kids did
Every time and when in pain
You can see her crying in the rain

There she goes
Out in the pouring rain
The only time where she opens up
her little heart carrying all the pain
This little girl goes
Goes on crying in the rain

She didn't know her family well
Had no proper upbringing
She thought she was living in hell
Lived behind closed doors
With no fairytale stories
Just a barren life filled with remorse

There she goes
Out in the pouring rain
The only time where she opens up
her little heart carrying all the pain
This little girl goes
Goes on crying in the rain

No-one knew what she was going through
She was a mystery except for a few
Every time she wanted to cry
She would look out the window
With arms open wide
Silently wishing for the heavens to cry

There she goes
Out in the pouring rain
The only time where she opens up
her little heart carrying all the pain
This little girl goes
Goes on crying in the rain

Clear drops from the sky
Mixes with the tears from her eyes
She lets the rain whisper sweet nothings
Before she bids them all good-bye

Breaking Free

2008-07-11T01:45:00.000-07:00

What kind of life would it be?
If I had to stay here
Just to make believe
Tell you what now baby
This ship is sailing away
And am sorry but you don’t have a say
Is this your attitude?
You might ask
I don’t have a choice
I don’t want to wear a mask
I am breaking free from all this crap
This is not a relationship
This is a trap
People, wake up and see
If you really have what you need
Don’t be the prey
Just cause your weak
Instead be poised, be meek
Guess this is something to think about
I don’t know for sure
But I still gave it a thought
Made me realize I was caught
I decided to break open the shackles
I was caught in and opted to move out
No regrets what so ever
I just think I am smart enough to be clever.

POVERTY.

2008-06-12T06:24:00.000-07:00

Across the nations, over the sea
People unite in agony
Fighting for survival
In all that they see
Break the walls down of poverty
United we stand, banners fly
Protestors are left high and dry
Poverty the birthplace for vexation
Can’t blame the poor souls
They are drowning in deep depression
The fight goes on and on
As Ngo’s and Governments
Answer the phone
Do we see a solution at sight?
Or is poverty soaring as high as a kite.

Romantic Imagination.

2008-06-01T09:04:00.000-07:00

I was at work when suddenly dark clouds covered the big blue sky. I was freezing as the temperature in my bay dropped to almost 19 degree. The climate forced me to draw out my note pad. Thankfully, it was lunch time in Europe and I had sometime on my hand. I walked out and sat on the stairway looking out the window I began to write...

“The scent of Love, its profound meaning
I saw it in you, as I rested for a while
Your breath on my neck and the warmth of your kiss
Took me by surprise – a sinful bliss
Don’t ask me why
Don’t ask me how
We always end up together somewhere somehow
I search my heart for some old memories
I am not surprised to see, they are now just some old can of cherries”.

The sky was so dark and the wind was blowing hard when, suddenly the skies opened and it began to pour down heavily. The climate was so romantic and sadly I was at work. All I could do to enjoy this climate was to put my imagination to some good use. I chuckled for some reason and started to pen down my next set of lines...

“I stand there in the balcony, facing the sea.
Waiting for you to gently come and hug me
Whisper in my ears, sweetie here’s your cup of tea
I turn to you and you say - the night looks naughty indeed
The touch of your hand
Triggers an unusual feeling with in me
Honey, I enjoy every moment you spend with me”.

Well well well, what do you know; it was time for me to go. I had a few calls to make and I wanted to keep the flow alive. Quickly, I shifted to my "work mode" and made those calls. Had a few good conversations and it was time for me to go. For some weird reason even before I completed the poem I knew it would be my favorite piece of work. I was home and climate was still lovely. I read through what I wrote and started to continue regaining the flow I wrote...

“Slowly, together we move to the couch
When suddenly I scream – OUCH!
You sat on my finger I laughed out loud
Sssshhh… the night’s fresh and there’s no crowd
I saw you chuckle as you uttered those blissful words out
I saw your eyes shine bright
I just couldn’t ignore your sight”.

I was getting in to the mood and suddenly my cell phone rings. “Hello…Oh hi, what’s up?” I end up having a long conversation with one of my close friend. Chit chatting late in to the night, I love having such conversations it’s always fun. Now, come on am sure y’all would agree with me on this one. Anyways, it was at this time I thought of rendering this poem in a different way and as I ended the conversation I went back in to working on my little master piece... (chuckle)

“We laid there watching the world go by
Am I testing your patience sweet sugar – Oh my!
The things you do, I’d love to see
Baby you never fail to amuse me
Holding your hands I say this to you
Some of my dreams I wish to share with you”.

It was late night. I went online, caught up with my ‘late night crawlers’, visiting my orkut pages, having some pleasant chat, drinking little wine and working on my poem. Oh, yeah!! I was still in the flow. I have written a lot of love/romantic poems in the past but, with this one I wanted to project the whole thing in a BOLD way, heat things up a bit and show some maturity in my writing style. I start imagining again, and I began to jot down a few lines...

“Take me in to a province that’s just ours
Where we can while away time and spend hours
Holding me in your arms – making love
Sweet talking all day all night long
I rested my head on your chest
I can hear your heartbeat, I feel your sweat
I raise my head to look in to your lovely eyes
Honey, let’s just become victims of the night
Making new memories – Lets delight
Thousand kisses with little fights”.

I was totally charged up all excited about this poem. I knew it was special for me and I wanted to post it on the 1st of June. Just so it could be the first poem of this month. So, here I am working on the last portion watching the match the final of the IPL, trying to keep my cool and my sense of imagination alive but, the intensity of the match is getting me all worked up,praying hard on the inside for Chennai to win the match and closing my eyes to picture the scene for me to start writing again...

“To lay there with him to watch him smile
His sweet smell of scent takes me miles
I love it when he puts his arms around me
And secures me tight
The night feels so complete when your right here by my side”.

Summer's Heat

2008-05-22T22:19:00.000-07:00

With the summer's heat knocking on my door
With winter's breeze far behind
I sit here with my glass of wine
Cooling myself with soothing music
knowing that tomorrows another day of sun shine

I make a big deal out of travelling to work
In an insane hour - 12 pm to be precise
With summer's heat draining every bit of my energy
I just can't come to terms with winter being so far off

the summer's heat - a reason for people's sad demise

Close to about 40 minutes in the sun
Makes me complain
Not stopping to think about the ones
Who work in this heat
Just to ensure we get our grains

So let’s look at the other side
Do not be so self centered
It's not a joke when others say
That someone’s hard work
Goes un noticed when things are taken for granted.

Different World Same Time.

2008-05-14T14:18:00.000-07:00

It’s 2 in the morning
I ain’t asleep
I walk to my balcony
Just to feel the cold breeze
I pull up my bean bag
I cuddle up there
Gaze at the stars
Silently wishing I was there
I tried to close my eyes
To dream for a while
But the sky was so attractive
Forced me to watch the clouds go by
Passing through the moon
It looked so fine
I covered myself with my blanky
I was having a good time
I also remembered that I have friends
Who leave work at this time
But the world they see
Is so very different from mine

PREMONITION

2008-05-06T23:08:00.000-07:00

Take just a minute
And ask yourself this
What do I need?
To surpass this
Feeling of distress
Consume my cry
I feel at sea
Or is it just me?
We have all been there
I know for sure
Each one has a different way
To find that cure
Every hassle every strive
You have got to go through the battle
And come out with pride
Premonitions are part of life
Ruling your thoughts
From all four sides
Interpret it properly
You will see it unravel befittingly.

TWINGE.

2008-04-21T07:50:00.000-07:00

Searching for love
Through the day
Fighting pain
Through the night
Things change, people change
But the plight forever will be the same

Digging deep into the past
Trying to resolve unsolved emotions
Puts one in a delicate position
With no perfect present
Time didn’t wait, wounds never healed
But one moves on along with the memories

No one knows what the future holds
Tomorrow is far away
To survive this twinge
Is a battle on its own
Will someone be there?
Will someone be there for me today?

People Dressed In White

2008-04-10T22:15:00.000-07:00

Every soul is precious
Every cry is heard
But still I see deaf ears
And eyes with fake tears
People dressed in white
Are not angels in disguise
When was the last time?
They ever did something right

Drought, hunger and death
Are all set to strike
What is your take on this?
Are you even willing to fight?
Debates, discussions, interviews
Is not the answer for this?
Put your words into action
And maybe this time you won’t miss

You are the chosen one
Elected by the people
The whole nation looks up to you
But all you do is kill
Go out there and do what is right
People dressed in white
You have the power
In which you take pride
Use it to hear the torment and cry
Of the minority
Who are depressed and deprived.

SERENITY

2008-04-04T20:40:00.000-07:00

Hush now don’t say a word
Just close your eyes and see the world
The peace, the beauty that surrounds your mind
Is not what you’ll get to see on the outside
Serenity is a quality one must develop
The beauty of it lies underneath your cup
The cup of life is in your hands
Use it wise, use it while you can
Live your life to the fullest
Yes, I have heard that a million times before
But have you thought about the rest
Rest assured you will have places to go
I would love to see the world
The world I see when I shut my eyes
Hopes and dreams fade the minute I open my eyes
I am willing to press on till my last breath
I will not give up even if am on my death bed
Serenity, we will get there for sure
With our eyes open
We will make a secure future.

It’s Happening Right Where You Are!

2008-03-31T22:12:00.000-07:00

Look around you
What do you see?
Ask this to yourself
Wherever you may be
I was at this concert
Just the other day
Two questions where directed at me
And now am directing it to y’all today
Are we gonna stand and watch? Or
Are we gonna do something?
These are the questions
To which am answering
But what am I talking about?
Y’all must be thinking
Molestation, harassment, dowry
Poverty, child labor and slavery
All this and more
Is happening in your locality
Now tell me
Are we gonna stand and watch? Or
Are we gonna do something?
Shocking but true
I speaking from the victim’s point of view
Do what you can
The steps are few
But if we stick together
We can make things brand new.

Random Thoughts

2008-03-28T23:16:00.000-07:00

It is so clear
The breath of life is here
I don't want to miss out on it
Like I did the last time
What makes me say this
Is what I feel inside
That everyone of us is special
And there is nothing to hide
At times we can just feel so low and blue
Feel worthless without a clue
Look deep within you
And your sure to find something new
I am just a small town girl
With dreams and hopes
Got no clue of what to expect
Got no idea about who I am yet
I just hope that I can make a difference
In some one's life
Be there around them to make things right
Random thoughts running in my mind
But my words are true
So let them shine

Make The Start

2008-03-27T02:06:00.000-07:00

The world is full of people
Too busy with their lives
Well am not an exception to this
But I see to that I don't lose sight
On my way to work
I saw few people fight
I could only say to myself
That this world is in desperate need for help
People always have time for themselves
But not for their loved ones
This shows we live in a selfish world
With a lot of self centered people around
Things have got to change
But where does one start?
Stop, don't turn to your neighbour
Why don't you make the start

Awesome God

2008-03-27T01:59:00.000-07:00

Do you know that we serve an awesome god

Who died, So that we could live

He bore all the burdens for us

And he accepted us inspite of our sins

He was brutally beaten for his good deeds

And still hears us out and answers our needs

As I sit here in my bay

These thoughts rushed into my mind

That made me say

I serve an awesome god today

Can I, Will You?

2008-03-26T05:50:00.000-07:00

Can I come to you?
When I feel low
Will you lift me up?
And never let go

Can I tell you?
All of my secrets
Will you help me?
Safeguard it from the rest

Can I hear you say?
I love you
Will you treat me well?
Till the end and not sue

Can I see you cry?
Just to me
Will you let me be there?
To set you free

Can I know you more?
The whole of you
Will you be my friend?
From now on till the end

What Needs To Be Done?

2008-03-26T02:59:00.000-07:00

If you need me I'll be there
If you don't I don't care
The world is a better place to live in
If you can press on and not give in
Everybody wants their 15 seconds of fame
To get there survival of the fittest is the game
Play your part and play it fair
In the end you will get your share
Open your mind and envisage
Open your eyes to see the ridge
Give all that you have got
Sometimes I wish I never fought
Look out for new opportunity
Find it and your sure to glee
This is what needs to done
For all of us to have some fun

Jesus Is My Trend

2008-03-24T02:05:00.000-07:00

Oh lord my god
I feel real odd
To see people around me
Who wouldn’t let me be
I lost many friends
The minute they knew Jesus is my trend
How it hurts me to see
These people who fail to see you as the key
They dislike me
They tell me it’s impossible to be sin free
With you by my side
I will shine with pride
I pray in and out
Lord for you alone I will sing aloud
I was blessed to hear you say
That I will carry your burden and pay
Thank you for your message
I feel as if I’ve been set free from a cage
My heart will seek out for your face
That forever will be my case

Praises

2008-03-22T12:58:00.000-07:00

Praise be unto the lord
Who has worked miracles upon us
Praise his holy name
For he has helped us win the game
He has healed us
He has released his mighty power
Only to shower us with his blessings
For he is our strong tower
For this Easter god made sure
That we heard his message of cure
We were touched and we were healed
As for me and my friends
All we did was kneel
We gave him thanks of praise
For he is full of grace
Always ready to hear us out
Thank you lord for sending us an anointed preacher
Thank you for your message our wonderful teacher
We forever will worship you
We are your selected few
Who will always run to you
We surrender to you oh Lord
We give you our lives
We worship you with all our hearts
We will spread your words in different parts
Be with us dear Lord
Help us reach out to the crowd.

Happy Birthday

2008-03-21T01:04:00.000-07:00

It's that time of the year
For us to freak out and cheer
A very special day it is
For all of us who know this kid
Stern stubborn strong
Call him however you want
An absolute star
Is what you are
You are turning a year older
Please don't sit there with your folder
It's your day it's your birthday
I wish you get all your heart's desire
Stay happy and blessed throughout the year
You deserve only the best things in life
For now just cut the cake with the knife
I send my wishes across to you
This one is long overdue
Have a blast today tomorrow and forever
Your birthday is going to rock that's for sure
Happy Birthday dear one
God bless you go now and have some fun.

Emotions Running Wild

2008-03-20T02:47:00.000-07:00

Emotions running wild
I feel so confused inside
What seemed like fun before
Has been wiped off the shore
I can't understand on what's happening
I just hope he ain't gaming
I thought it was a start of a new beginning
Who am I kidding?
I am just a fool who has been dreaming
I don't have a clue on what's on the other side
I was rejoicing like an idiot with a lotta pride
I think I've to distance myself from such emotions
It's useless trying to make friends with passion

Life Goes On

2008-03-20T00:57:00.000-07:00

Through the sorrow through the joy
I’ve seen it all, my boy
Cried in darkness out of pain
In the end what did I gain?
As a child I had a dream
To say out loud what I mean
I guess I was too shy
As I stood there
Watching the world go by
Try to make a point and they call you stupid
But don’t give up till you achieve it
Everybody’s got their share of miseries
Talk to them and you’ll hear all their stories
For many the sorrows may last for a night
But many won’t let go without a fight
No matter what the situation is like
Life goes on mate, just don’t strike
Be bold be strong
Nothing in your life can ever go wrong
Stand up for what you believe in
Don’t forgot that life goes on
Even if you plan to give in

Pearl Of A Person

2008-03-19T04:46:00.000-07:00

Ever believed in miracles
That could bring about a change in your life
Thinking of it now I chuckle
To see the difference I make in someone else’s life
Someone special crossed my path
Right when I was under someone’s wrath
I’m amazed at the instant bond
I’m speechless I’m stunned
With heart of diamond and words of gold
A pearl of a person, really bold
This is a miracle that I cherish
For this one has made my worries perish
A wonderful entry into my barren life
Has added yet another chapter to make things right
I don’t know what to expect out of this
But I’m sure I won’t end up giving it a miss
Let me see what’s in store for me
Hopefully things will be alright and I‘ll be free.

Walking By The Shore

2008-03-18T04:55:00.000-07:00

Walking by the sea shore

Starring at the sky

The stars shine brightly

All through the night

The sound of waves reaches my ears

As I recollect my past few years

I see a single tree at a distance

How I wish to settle here with my tent

The touch of the wind makes me cold

I really wish I was old

Its a beautiful night never the less

Oh wait I just remembered

I need to go my room's a mess

ITS ULTIMATE

2008-03-17T02:21:00.000-07:00

Two days of rain and a day of game
We all waited before we took aim
This is my first shot at the sport
And now I guess I am addicted to the court
So much of energy so much of fun
The spirit of the game is as bright as the sun
I can’t believe its love at first sight for me
This game has captured my heart oh so deeply

Looking for fitness, looking for health
Look no further, here’s a game
Ultimate Frisbee is the name
For those who are looking out for a sport
Hope I’ll see y’all this weekend at the court.

Hear Her Out

2008-03-13T01:26:00.000-07:00

She counted upon many to hear her out
Surrounded by people and all they got
Never had a family who made her feel real love
Mama's got her excuses and
Dada's got his job
She grew up all alone
Spent sleepless nights by her phone
All she wanted was some attention
But no one's got the time
Silently she cries herself to sleep
With no one by her side

To console her as she weeps

She locks herself inside a bathroom
And cries her sorrows out
Hoping that someone someday will hear her out
She waited for so long

Nothing has changed
People enter her life and
All she gets is tamed
It's now too late for anyone
She moved away for good
Filled with hurt and remorse
She just feels too lost
So she opened the bottle of tablets
And consumed all the pills
The medicine that use to heal her
Became the venom that kills
That’s right she is no longer alive
For us to reach out to her
But keep in mind that
There are so many more just like her
There could be someone

Whos’ right there next to you
Don’t forget to tell her
What she means to you.

CHAK DIYA INDIA!

2008-03-04T04:45:00.000-08:00

What a win - HISTORIC!! A fitting end to a nightmare. I have to put this write up in my blog for personal reasons. India beat Australia in their home soil to claim the CB series.

I don't know much about cricket but I used to be a die hard fan of the Australian cricket team (my family still is) but things changed the moment I saw Dhoni enter the team. Am not his fan but he is an important person. By God's Grace and his hard work this young lad has achieved so much in such a short span of time and HATS OFF to that.

It has been a roller coaster ride for the Indian team but they maintained their professionalism and have answered back in a fitting way. The team has stuck together at all times with a captain that backed them no matter what paved the way to a series win against the aussies. This is India's FIRST EVER tri-series win. A nail biting finish indeed.

Chak diya India. We are definitely proud of you. An amazing display of team work mixed with the right amount of aggression. The youngsters have done it, proved the critics wrong. A strong team in the making and this is just the beginning.

Congratulations TEAM INDIA!

Say No To War.

2008-02-29T20:36:00.000-08:00

Can we all come together?
To make this world a better place
Joining our hands in prayer
And stick through those trying days
We can make a difference
If we all just learn to be friends
So, why pick up these fights
Then lose your sense of direction
What did these innocent people do?
To fall under your wrath
Open your eyes to see
The mayhem you’ve in your path
Where is this going to lead you?
To heaven on earth
Think again, as you’re just kicking up dirt
We call for peace and you say no
We can’t sit back just to see you go
Guns and armors can’t solve anything
Let’s not create a war but a new beginning

Try and Try…..Till You Succeed! Does this actually work?

2008-02-27T21:45:00.000-08:00

Oh!! Well am back with another article, this time am going discuss on the topic of “Try and you will succeed”. I’ve heard “famous” people say this before but never believed in it. Come on now give me a break here, I have been trying hard to succeed in a lot of areas of my life and somehow I feel I am quite not there until last evening. Yeah baby!

I guess for the first time in a long time I felt success yesterday after trying for hours. What am I saying? I am just too caught up, let me explain. Yesterday, at work I had an important task that I had to complete. It was more of a deadline kind of a thingy. I am currently working on a research study on the European man guard market and yesterday I had to call up The Netherlands. I had been calling like for 2 hours straight and no luck. I walked in at 8:30 in the morning and it was like 4 when I started my calls (Don’t panic, I did do some other “official” work in-between). Anyways, so there I was sitting and basically breaking my head, getting all worked up and irritated (not only people refused to give their interviews but my team kind of fell short in having to write awards) How short? Well, we had to submit 4 awards this month and we fell short by not a big margin, we fell short of 4 awards! And my only hope was this one person from Belgium who can possibly be a nominee for an award, but I didn’t receive his email in over a weeks time and for the kind of state I was in, I lost the little hope that I had.

Then something happened. Yes, it’s a miracle I know lol but it happened. There was this one person who was willing to help me out and he not only gave me the information I needed but he answered all of my questions without any kind of hesitation. Now, how cool is that. So I felt a little no actually a lot better. As, I was about to end the call I receive a mail. Yes, right again it was the mail I was waiting for. If your thinking how lucky she can get. Think again because I don’t think this was luck.

Only because I tried without giving up did I get the interview that I needed. You might ask me, why then did I consider this a miracle earlier? I did that because I believe that it was because of my perseverance. I don’t intend to sound so philosophical but am sure many will agree with me on this one and those of who you don’t feel free to leave your comments. :-)

What I am trying to say here is that I learnt something yesterday. It is not that only if you gain stardom or popularity can you say that you tried and that’s how I succeeded. It applies to every single person and every single action you perform. It’s only because I was willing to make the calls did I somehow end up speaking to atleast one person who was being so informative, and this happened only because I tried. Now am not going to get awarded or praised in my office for this. Why? Because it’s my job and this is what I have to do. But I felt so content and felt a sense of accomplishment in helping my team in every which way possible. And I felt even happier when I had my loved ones feeling ecstatic about it.

I realized all this when I was on the bike with Archana K C ( one of my dear freinds), I even told her that this is what I am going to put up on my blog next. So people out there even the little things you do on a day to day basis will make you feel a winner when you sit back and realize what you have accomplished. So try and try you will succeed does work! Catch y'all on my next post. B4N!

Cheers!
Love
Tee

Life Is Beautiful

2008-02-25T21:44:00.000-08:00

There comes a time
When you need a helping hand
Someone to lift you up and make you stand
You look around to find that all have gone
But you know in your heart
That God won’t let you drown
We all are alone someway or the other
Even the happiest person will go through trouble brother
So why take it all on yourself
Leave it to god and he will help
Go about life the same old way
Only this time you will have your say
Life is beautiful, life is fun
Learn to enjoy it and you will run
Don’t sit back and grumble all day
Instead pack up your bag and lead the way

Know In Your Heart

2008-02-24T02:58:00.000-08:00

There's so much do
There's so much to say
There are so many things
That's here out today
I wish I could be the star
That shines brightly from afar
I try so hard to instigate
You don’t have to under estimate
Seek for the potential inside of you
Come out of the dark
Let the light shine through you
You don’t have to be afraid
To be all that you are
Know in your heart
That you’re the diamond and the star
Tell the world that you’ve made the start
Let them know that you’re playing your part
Leave the past behind you
You blue-eyed girl
You will see all evil crumble and curl
Be bold and be strong
Let this world now hear your song

Call Upon The Lord.

2008-02-18T19:49:00.000-08:00

Let us call upon the Lord
Reach out to the skies and shout
For he will be there to save us
Let's just call upon the Lord
The alpha and the omega
Is by your side
He will be there with you throughout the night
For you alone are my God
And in thee will I trust
With my soul crying out
I will call upon the Lord
Give him your heart today
And you will hear him say
How much you mean to him
Come on, just call unto him
He will make you reach heights
Take away all your freights
He will make your path straight
And then you will sing
Oh dear Lord you’re great
Let us call upon the Lord
Reach out to the skies and shout

Come On Now

2008-02-17T20:18:00.000-08:00

It’s early morning, and she wakes up
Makes some bread and then she packs up
She brushes her hair and wears her shoe
Come on now, let me drop you
She goes for work and checks her files
She feels so tired after walking those miles
She still enjoys what she does
Come on now, what’s the fuss?
Friends come home and we party all night
Eat some chips and start a pillow fight
They are my world and it’s full of light
Come on now, join the flight
Take me to a place where the sun don’t set
Take me high so I reach the sky
My dreams and wishes will get satisfied
Come on now, stay alive
Every day belongs to us
Come on now, let’s take the bus
Let me show you around and then you’ll see
That there are so many of us
Longing to be like you or me

Dear God

2008-02-17T05:48:00.000-08:00

I thought you knew
How much I needed you

But you just left me all alone in the dark

After all these years

I still feel the pain

When every guy just leaves me in the dark

Am I not worth being loved, dear god
Am I the joke for all, dear god

They'd come to me

And tell me that am good

But in the end they just dump me like a fruit

It hurts me bad

As it adds on to the pain

But I still fake a smile in that pain

Am I really that bad, dear god

Am I going to be alone, dear god

No one sees

The pain inside of me

I cry all alone in the dark, dear god

They all just need me

For sometime in thier lives

And then they all just tell me

Leave me alone, leave my side

For how long I've to be this way god

For how long I've to be alone, dear god

You're No Good

2008-02-15T20:13:00.000-08:00

Oh no, Here we go again
Don't start, don't be such a pain
I know what your upto
And am sick of all that you do
You say that you love me
But do you?
I don't need this
Because I can see right through you
You're no good
Trust me when I say this
You're absurd
And this is something that I heard
If you say, you love me
Why can't you treat me right
If you say, you care
Why do we fight
Oh no, Something ain't right
Don't start lets just not fight
You tore me apart
With your harsh words
And now you're a free bird
You're no good
Trust me when I say this
You're absurd
And this is something that I heard
I don't know what is happening
You just are so damn frightening
I need to get away from here
And start afresh without you
Being anywhere near.

Reflection - Tare Zameen Par

2008-02-14T21:08:00.000-08:00

Last night was special apart from the fact that it was Valentine’s Day, there was something else that made an impact on me and someone who’s special in my life. I am not a major movie buff and I don’t understand the technicalities of it. But, I am good enough to appreciate a film that was remarkably one of the best or may be I will go one step ahead and say “The Best” thought provoking movie that I have ever seen in recent times. No I did not go out to watch a mushy mushy love story, I am talking about a movie with a tag line that says “Every Child Is Special” Yes, I am talking about Tare Zameen Par.

I am just going to give you a quick snap shot of this movie. It revolves around an 8 year old kid who endures a lot of pain because no one around him recognizes that he is a slow learner. He found it hard to cope up with his studies and always felt pressured by his parents. He was packed off to a boarding school by his parents hoping that he would become a bit more disciplined but this just added to the kid’s trauma. The separation from his family made the child feel neglected, rejected, unloved and uncared for. He felt that he was given the worst punishment of separation just because he wasn’t excelling at school. His parents and teachers compared him to his brother who was an ace student in all fields. They failed to realize that this child needs help and love.

Alright, now why am I writing an article based on this? I have my reasons and I am penning them down. I know for a fact that this movie will make me cry but what I didn’t realize that it would have such a big impact on me. Every kid is special, and different. They all need to be treated correctly. I know a girl who had a similar problem when she was 10 years old. No she wasn’t suffering from dyslexia (like the actor in the movie) but, she did feel left out and rejected all her life. She was an average student, was ok at sports and sings well. So, then, what’s the similarity between the kid in the movie and her?

People in her life failed to realize that she felt unloved and uncared for. Most of her life she didn’t have her father by her side. She faced a lot of verbal and physical abuse right from when she was 10 years old. People didn’t know or rather failed to realize the impact it can have on a child. She went through hell, from her parent who didn’t want to believe that she was suffering from an eye problem right from grade 2. Oh, she voiced out the problem but her mother dismissed the whole thing by saying that you don’t have a problem you just want to “show off”. I mean why would a girl who’s in grade 2 want to show off with glasses. She suffered because of this, as she sat in the last row she couldn’t see the black board and always had to look into her neighbor’s book to copy notes. This was a huge problem because she got caught by her teachers during exams for trying to copy when all she did was trying to copy the questions written on the board. Because her mother failed to realize this, her grades dropped. She finally got her lens when she reached grade 7. There has been so many such instances in her life She longed to tell someone about how she felt, but everybody dismissed everything she had to say. She felt the separation right there and spent hours together in her room crying and longing for someone to hold her tight and hear all that she had to say. For any child family is something that’s permanent, something that will always remain to be a part of their lives. But, what happens when they fail to listen to that child like in this girl’s case or when they over look a certain disability like in the case of Ishann (the actor)

The child starts to develop fear, a mental block rather. This stops the child from letting people (parents, teachers) know that he/she is having a problem and that it needs attention and help. Every parent, teacher, friends and siblings needs to communicate and listen to what each other have to say. Every child needs to be heard, they need to know that they can go up to their parents for anything and everything. A child will only know this if parents make them feel that they are there to help them at all times. In the case of Ishaan there was Ram (arts teacher - aamir khan).In the case of the girl there was no one. She is all grown up now. But she stills carries the hurt of wanting to tell someone how she felt and that she needs help. Till date she knows nothing about her father, except may be for his name and designation. She doesn’t know what it’s like to have a papa or dada as she would say. She has achieved a lot of things in school and in college but she never had her dad calling her up to tell her that she’s made him happy or congrats on your achievement. Only she knows how much she wanted it.

It was this movie that made her realize that she has achieved all that Ishaan did and that is something to be proud of. She didn’t know that she was good at something because no one in her family recognized her talent and no one appreciated her for her work (till date). Nobody (family) even knows that she writes even though she has shown her work. She didn’t have a Ram in her life to make her realize that she’s a winner. But, through the movie she understood that she has done it. She also realized that she’s all grown up and that she is not that little kid any more. She has been waiting for nearly a decade hoping that things will change for her but nothing did, she realized that she is old enough to be there for the other kids who are like her, but, she is still longing for a family that will appreciate her every work. And with all her heart she waits, waits patiently.

I would like to conclude by saying that, please do not neglect any child. Listen to what they have to say. Make them know that as parents we re always here for you. Yelling, beating or any other kind of abuse is not the way to correct a child. It’s only through love. At all times let your kids know that they are loved. This girl still waits for the void created by her family to be filled. Don’t ever make your kid feel alone because once this gets registered in the kid’s mind and heart, the trauma the child faces only I know and it HURTS. The child is yours LOVE HIM/HER abundantly.

You're My Valentine!

2008-02-13T22:41:00.000-08:00

There she was looking at me
With roses in her hands
That was given by me
Yeah, she’s my girl
We had a tiff
Now, am just wondering what else to gift
I keep pacing up and down
And every time I look at her
She just frowns
It’s Valentine’s Day today
And I made her sad
Let me do something
To make her glad
I think, I think, I think real hard
And I came up with an idea
Wow, I am smart
I quickly sat down to write a song
Just so I and my sweetheart can sing along
I slowly walk toward her
As she looks around
I hold her close to me
And I sing a song
You are my valentine
And I love you
Don’t feel angry, don’t feel blue
Am sorry for making you upset
I know that’s wrong
I accept my mistake
You accept my song
You are my valentine
And I love you
Don’t feel angry, don’t feel blue.

Email From a Pastor, About My Blog!

2008-02-13T22:16:00.000-08:00

Hey,
I read your Blog….Keep up the great work of being real and letting Jesus shine through you. Some Christians get so preachy that we don’t seem real to people which only turns people off. They need to know that we are real and that, yes, we struggle with issues too, but we have someone that will help us through all of our struggles. We should all have a goal of helping people that suffer and coming against injustice. We need more Christian like you!
God Bless You!
Pastor John Marvin

Time After Time

2008-02-12T20:21:00.000-08:00

There she goes walking down the empty old street
As tears filled her eyes
She tries so hard not to cry
But the pain's so hard to take
She falls apart
She doesn’t seem to understand, why
No one chooses to be by her side
They all seem to want her
But, not for life
Poor girl seems helpless
Disheartened she beats up herself
She shows her true colors only to the one, she loves
But many fail to ease her, and just storm out
She knows in her heart, she is all alone
And when she cries out, people slam the phone
Is it her fault that she needs some attention?
How much does it cost to give her that affection?
Every tear drop is counted
Every cry is heard
But as for this little girl
She has made up her mind
She will be kind
Kind enough to be there for the ones
Who need her for life.
With pain engulfing her heart
She takes a stroll through park
She has seen this happen to her
Time after time
It’s no different, it ain’t a crime
She picks up the pieces
And pulls up her life
She wipes all her tears
And says goodnight.

Don't Think Twice To Say You Care!

2008-02-08T01:53:00.000-08:00

Hi people, firstly, thank you all for your comments on my first article. I really appreciate y’all taking time out to read it. This has encouraged me to go ahead and write my second one. I mostly concentrate on topics that can make an individual think. Am not saying that he has to act on it, but I believe that thinking is the first step before someone jumps into action. Agreed? Well, for my second topic I decided to talk on the subject of “Love”. Now, wait am not referring to the romantic shade of it but Love as a whole. Let me ask you, how many of us actually take time out to let your loved ones know that you really care for them? Answer, sadly not many. We don’t realize the impact this can have on a person.

I have in my life time come across various people, different race, color and religion. Well who hasn’t? Anyways, now not everyone I meet leave a mark on me but, most of them did. If you ask a close friend of mine he will tell you that I call all my friends as my close friends.

Years back, I took a major leap of faith and I moved away from the ones who betrayed me (friends). Nope, am not complaining about it because the 2 months of isolation I went through made me realize the value of letting your loved ones know that you care. I felt so lost and unloved. I was in disbelief that my own friends can actually be so cruel. Time passed, I made new friends but I was always haunted by my past. I found it difficult to cope up; somewhere down the line I always thought these friends would betray me as well. But, they all contributed in making me believe that they are there for me no matter what. And that made me feel loved.

Every human alive will agree with me that it is important to show some love to your loved ones. Be it love from a mother to her child, brother to a sister or a boy friend to his girl friend or whoever. I will not deny the fact that everyone expresses their love. Am not here to debate on how much you have to or how often you have to express your love. Am just asking you “if your loved ones know that you love them no matter what”? Many of us, am sure have felt that we should have shown this person a little more love or treated him/her a little better. I have felt it. But, by the time I even realized this I had lost the person for good. So, I decided to show my love for people I love with every chance I get. It makes me feel special when I have people tell me how important I am to them and how much they love me.

Do you know that, with just your loving words, you can put a smile on a sad face and heal a broken heart? Try it and you will see. You might be the busiest man on planet earth but if you have someone who is longing for your love don’t be too busy in letting them know u care. Because you might be busy loving what you do and they might be busy loving you (take it in the right sense). Am not saying that that’s all they do.

If you have a loved one waiting to hear from you, don’t think twice to call him or her. Spend time with your loved ones every chance you get. But, don’t miss out on the “other” things that are a part of your life. At the same time if you not getting the attention that you feel you should get. Don’t go asking for it. You are worth so much more. Also, stop to think if you’re treating those that are in your life correctly.

When you’re away from your loved one, be it whether you’re in your college or your work place or just hanging out with your bunch of friends, make an attempt to at least call or text your loved ones, a simple hi will make him/her feel special and wanted. After going home spend time with your family, find out what happened at home when you weren’t around. These are few things that you can do. I get busy once am at work but I make sure that I let my loved one know that am thinking about him with may be a call or a message.

I have seen cases where the opposite party doesn’t even react properly when he/she receives a call from a loved one. Maybe your busy maybe your not but don’t ever take things for granted. If you were unable to react properly due to unavoidable circumstances just let your loved one know that you were caught up in a situation that forced me to react this way. And when a loved one calls you, talk to him/her properly, avoid giving away signs like you aren’t interested in talking to him/her because, that could hurt.

Everyone in this world wants to love and be loved. When you have an opportunity to show it to some one don’t be a fool to miss out on it. Never let a person who is counting on you for your affection, love or care, down. They want it from you because you make them feel special. Be happy that there is someone who is longing for you, waiting for that one call or message from you. Please, do not think twice to let your loved once know that you care.

Love
Tee

What’s your purpose in life?

2008-02-07T03:26:00.000-08:00

How many of us here know what our purpose in life is? How many of us can boldly or rather confidentially say that I know what my purpose in life is? Sure, you can tell me that you found your purpose in life; you can tell me that you’re a successful business man or an ace student or whatever. But that doesn’t mean that you have discovered your purpose in life or does it? I mean I can relate to all of the above listed things, its just that I would call it a responsibility and not a purpose. I asked myself the same question and the answer is I didn’t have a clear vision or rather an insight of my life’s purpose (until 2005 dec). How can one determine his or her purpose in life? Now, am not saying that by the end of this article you will know what your life’s purpose is but am sure that it will at least make you think about it.

I never really gave a thought about this until December of 2005 when my life was transformed for the better. Never did I believe in the strange ways of God to instill a purpose into every one of us. Trust me when I say this each of us have a purpose we just have to dig deep to find out what that purpose is. Now, the question is how do I do that? I don’t know if there is one correct way to discover these things but I can tell you how I, found my purpose in life. Time after time you might have come across situations that could grip your heart and question god. In my case it was people, right from my young age I was able to connect with the ones who were hurt in life. I always had an urge to go out and be there for them in all ways possible. When I was in school we (friends and I) decided to visit an old aged home. I admit that this was not something we wanted to do. It was Diwali and we wanted to do something different and when this thought cropped up we decided to give it a ago. It was a meaningless act if you ask me. We were just caught up in the moment. So, we landed in this place handed over the “stuff” you know the sweets, clothes etc…to the management and then we decided to spend time with the “senior citizens”.

This was the turning point of my life. One little conversation with a grandpa affected me so much that it bought tears to my eyes. Soon, we left the place and as always my friends and I gathered up in the terrace to discuss on “the other” things. This experience for me was like a passing cloud because I felt at that time there was really nothing that I could offer these people and slowly I distanced myself from the entire episode. Years passed, I grew, and I no longer had the friends I used to. I was going through a rough patch in my life. I guess this is the time when every girl questions “Am I a woman or a girl”? Things took a sharp turn in my life and before I knew it I felt my inner energy was tapped. I could hear a voice cry out to me. I have never felt this way before. I felt so strong and empowered and it was during this time that I asked myself this question Tina, What is the purpose in your life? A quick flash back and once again tears filled my eyes. I realized that at that time I made the grandpa feel wanted. I made him feel that I was looking out for him and that I cared to spend Diwali with him for that little time. I realized that the meaningless act was not so meaningless anymore and after all those years my heart felt content. I realized that my purpose in life was to be there for the one’s who are hurt, for the ones who just needed that special attention, hear them out and give them the boost they need to stand up and get going. Now just because I do this doesn’t mean my life is a bed of roses. I have my share of problems and I at times break down. But, that doesn’t stop me from being there for others.

I have had people come up to me and ask “how can you possibly be there for others when you can’t be there for yourself”. Well I really don’t have an answer to that and I really don’t care how , I don’t even have to justify it because I know in my heart I’m doing what is right and more importantly am doing what is right without hurting anybody. Now, that I found my purpose I have put that into action. I may not be carrying this out on a major scale or level but I am doing it in every little way possible.

If today you have decided to find out what your purpose in life is make sure that you line up your purpose with your ability, needs and desires. Make the choice and be the difference is.

Love,
Tina

You Got All It Takes To Be Yourself!

2008-02-05T23:46:00.000-08:00

Are you going to sit down and grumble all day?
Are you going to sit back and not get up?
Who told you that you are not worth it?
Who told you that you aren’t good enough?
You are the air that fills the earth
I know what you’re going through
But it is high time you break through
You got all it takes to be yourself
But come-on now let me just help
You are not someone who knows it all
But you don’t have to end up speaking to the wall
Show the world what you made of
Look at all things that you’ve got
You really are special in your own ways
Don’t listen to what others say
Don’t be afraid to speak your mind
I am sure that one day you will find
The love of your life
But I want to see you geared up for life
I don’t ever want to see you weak inside
You got all it takes to be yourself
But come-on now let me just help
You weren’t born to be a loser
You for me are a sure winner
All that I want is to see you change
Come on be strong and don’t ever blame
Make me proud break the shackles
Stand up against the ones who look down upon you
Control you because you gave them the power to
You aren’t the victim but the victor here
Stand up and say that I am strong enough
So that everyone can hear
You got all it takes to be yourself
Come-on now let me just help

Don’t Listen To All That They Speak

2008-02-05T23:25:00.000-08:00

It’s so darn easy to feel alone
Just pack your bags and leave your home
I call my love to say a hi
All he had to tell me was a goodbye
What did I do to deserve all this I cry?
It’s not easy to move on but I try
I think that there must be another way
That will make it easier for me to say
Hey, hey come along
Don’t give up but just carry on
Don’t let anyone tell you that you’re weak
Don’t listen to all that they speak
You know in your heart you’re being true
And that you’re not expecting anything out of the blue
A strong miracle is all I need
To shut them up and fulfill my deed
Today you’re special and tomorrow you’re not
What world am I living in?
They all are just ready to poke
I believe in taking chances
To make the change
So be bold and shout it out
Let your voice be heard
Don’t be afraid
You’re as precious as gold
For someone in this world
Just find out whom sweet girl
Hey, hey come along
Don’t give up but just carry on
Don’t let anyone tell you that you’re weak
Don’t listen to all that they speak
You are wanted and you are loved
Maybe it's your time to kick off and fly

How will you know,untill you’ve tried
I am right here waiting to help you out
Ready to listen to all you got
I’m not the one to leave your side
But I will be there to see you fly
Hey, hey come along
Don’t give up but just carry on
Don’t let anyone tell you that you’re weak
Don’t listen to all that they speak.

I Won’t Love You Any Less.

2008-01-28T01:16:00.000-08:00

She sits here on the look out for someone
Someone who can hear her out
And not shout
She sits here wanting to be loved
She is not able to fight this feeling and let go
Now, she feels lost and doesn’t know
She can trust no one
She can’t even turn around to seek help
She feels like an alien
Even when she is around her friends
She tries to get closer
But they all just call her a loser
People who she knows from birth
Don’t want her anywhere near
She can’t fight this feeling anymore
She cries out cause she doesn’t know
What she did wrong she doesn't even know
But when she goes out to make peace and find ease
They all turn away and just tease
She says she ain’t weak
But does cry when she freaks
All that she wants is a warm hug
Just so she knows she’s loved
She feels left out and unimportant
Hoping that someday
She will be appreciated
She knows who she is and what she does
And every statement she makes creates a buzz
All that I can tell you is that
Don’t feel ashamed to cry
Because that’s one way I see through you
Whatever happens keep this in your head
That no matter what you tell
I won’t love you any less
If you want to get angry do so
Talk to me and we will take things slow
I am there for you no matter what though
But don’t hide and shy away
No mater what I m here and will stand by you
When everybody takes a hike
I still will be here waiting for you.

I Need You.

2008-01-21T02:53:00.000-08:00

Baby, it’s alright take it easy
Now don’t you worry I can see
I need you like crazy
And it’s not just my fantasy
Carry me in your arms
Touch me with your palms
Let me there for you
At times of trouble
Let us sit together and burst those bubbles
You know that I’ll be there
If you should need me
They why worry honey
We got each other and can take on things together
I need you to realize
That this ain’t a game of cat and mice
I will not hide nor will I make promise that I can’t keep
I won’t be the cause for your disturbed sleep
Because I need you like crazy

How Great Is Our Lord

2008-01-20T22:23:00.000-08:00

He creates a way where there seems to be noway
He works in ways we cannot see
But I assure you he'll be there for both you and me
He heals the broken hearted
He cares for those who are battered
Oh how great is our Lord
My lord I love you a lot
A lot more than what my words can express
You took time out and taught me a lot
Before all this I was just an empty pot
Everytime I start fighting
I think of all the bloody beating
You took for me
Oh how great is our Lord

I havn't been there off late

And it's not coz I've lost faith

Come regin in me

My strength my shield
You have given me my space

And I hope in everything I do

I will leave behind your trace

Sometimes

2008-01-20T21:26:00.000-08:00

Sometimes things seem beautiful

Sometimes it seems so unreal

Whatever be the situation

This heart of mine will praise you
For you are my everything

My fortress my strength

Your love rules my heart

And forever you'll stay and never depart

Sometimes things are rocky

Sometimes I feel so weary

But at all times you're there

Especially when I start to glare

You are alive and have indeed risen

My saviour my Jesus

You are simply out of this world

Sometimes when I'm down

Sometimes when I frown

You become the clown to make me smile

My father my love

Where will I be if we wern't meant to be

You were forsaken when I was forgiven

It all comes down to this now Lord

It's all about you.

Trees Whisper

2008-01-16T06:39:00.000-08:00

Shall we dance
To the tune of the breeze
Shall I hold you
And get down on my knees
There's a little heart
That's looking to be healed
With that one kiss of yours
I'm sure you'll open many doors for me
There were times at night
When I could hear the trees
Whisper all their sad stories
It was like they were looking out for someone
For that someone who will make sure
All things are said and done
It's been quite sometime now
Since I heard those trees
Tell their sad stories
I sit it solitude and I wonder
And my mind begins to ponder
I know you will always be there for me
Like how I was there for those trees.

There's Something About You

2008-01-14T08:51:00.000-08:00

There's something about you
That makes me wanna cry
I know that you are the one
Who's gonna be there till I die
You gave me hope
When I was left with none
Now all of a sudden it's all fun
With each passing day
My happniess grows
And now I can handle everything
That my enemies throw
Without you in me
I can't find noway
I still wonder if this is what
You've got to say
I'm what I am b'coz of you my dear
I'll do anything
I give you my word do not fear
I'll be forver your lovely girl
Hold on to me and never let me go
Lets stay together and take things slow.

3 In the Morning

2007-12-06T13:30:00.000-08:00

What is wrong with me
I feel so cold and weary
I have this unusual feeling inside
Now that ain't right
I wonder what's wrong
That I am writing this song
I have got the best things in life
I couldnt wish for anything more
Then why this ache in my heart?
I really don't know
A lotta things are running in my head
Even though I'm actually late for bed
It's 3 in the morning
And I'm awake darling
Where are you my angel
Come on now please do tell
I'm going to miss y'll for a few days
But will come back with gifts and cakes.

The Night I Turned 21

2007-11-28T01:18:00.001-08:00

I turned 21 just last night.
And my god this year there were no fights
It all started with a surprise party at my house
Something that has never happened before
But it was one party that I enjoyed to the core
The celebrations went on and on
But I was as usual on the phone
Some how I was excited for this birthday
That I was smiling all through the day
I came for work and was a little upset
Cause something was missing from the desk
Later I went over to T3 to meet my friends
They were happy to see me in my latest trend
When I was about to leave
I asked about the missing thing
That's when I saw it come in.
I go back to my bay
And everyone there wished me HAPPY BIRTHDAY
Then in the evening I was to cut two cakes
With another friend of mine
Who’s birthday falls on the same day as mine
It was a blast to celebrate my day with them
A heartfelt thanks goes out to all my friends
I come back to my bay after the celebrations at T3
And guess what there was another treat waiting for me
My friends in the sales bay
Ordered for a Chocolate Fantasy

From café coffee day
And I had a great time celebrating
Here in my bay
Oh wait things aren’t done yet
It was my turn now
To treat them to the fullest
We all had dinner at my expense
Something that made me feel content
There were lots of cute instances
Like when I had someone
Who came to pay me for my treat
On the whole this birthday was special
And all memories made from it
Will make me tell
You guys are truly my god given friends
Be it the ladies or the gents.

This Is What I Feel

2007-11-15T04:44:00.000-08:00

Everytime I talk to you
I'm able to see right through you
I don't know how
But all the hunches I made about you
Are right until now
I don't want you to look at me as some kind of a freak
It disturbs me so much to see you weak
Yes, I am young when compared to you
But I know that you've got absolutely no clue
Of what I have gone through
I might come across to you as a playful child
But don't forget to see me under the true light
Your eyes speak a lot to me
I know they carry a story
That I wanna see
Everytime I look at you
I look you straight in the eye
I feel as if they cry out to me
Asking me to hold you tight
You might be shrewd
You might be strong
You might even go on as if nothing is wrong
But my intuitions were right
You're not yourself
I wish to offer you my help
Now don't take this in the wrong sense
All that am trying to say is that
I want to be there for you through
Your joy and your pain
I want to tell you all this
Face to face
But I just can't do it
From my work place
I have the guts to text you
To see if you are ok
I'm just not doing it
Cause I don't want to get back a formal reply
That reads thanks am ok
I can understand why I get such a reply
But don't you think friendship can grow
As the time flies by
Am sure you started out the same way
With your other close friends
They too were once like me
Please now can you let me be
Your truly an amazing person in my sight
I don't want to let go of you without a fight
I hope you see that my feelings for you are true
And that it's not just mere sympathy
That I'm showing you
It's the position that you hold
That makes me feel a bit cold
If only you could strike a causal conversation
Or if I get to meet you during an intermission
What do I do? I feel so helpless
I can't understand why you doing this to yourself
But I want you to stop it all
And one day pick up my call.

Concerned

2007-11-15T04:14:00.000-08:00

Don’t think I’m trying to barge into your life
But I’m highly concerned over the things I hear
I don’t know what’s going on inside of you
But I really wish I knew
My imaginations are flying high as a kite
But my intentions are forever right
Why is it that you’re not eating?
I hope I can get the answer from you over a meeting
I’m deeply concerned about you
I pray that I can be there to help you through
I don’t have the courage to open up and ask
This to me is a damn huge task
I don’t know what’s wrong
But one thing is for sure
I don’t want to see you drown

Made My Day

2007-11-07T09:55:00.000-08:00

It is a beautiful night

As lights fill the sky

Every soul delights

Cause it's such a magical night

It is the festival of lights

That is being celebrated nation wide

Something that even brings out

The ones who hide

It is indeed special
Cause I got something

That I never expected

Something that made my day

I was taken a back

When he reached out his hand

I didnt realise what had happend

Till I got inside the van

Well thank you God

Is all that I can say

For it is you who made my day.

Your Smile

2007-11-06T00:47:00.000-08:00

Before I saw you
I really had no clue
Of what I was gonna do

But now in an instance
I feel that we have bridged the distance

After all these months

I finally saw you smile at me

Wow how lucky can I be

I don't want to sound hasty

But I wish one day

We can go out for a pastry

Normally it could be a guy

Who tells all this

But hey why would I miss
An oppourtunity like this

Just to tell you that

Your smile took me out of this world

And this to me is so much more precious

Than my diamonds or pearls

Love Once Lost Cannot Be Found

2007-11-02T04:34:00.001-07:00

This is who you are
And this what you did
Now you decide for yourself
And tell me if you need any help
You were unfaithful
You were uncaring
You are all about yourself
And all you did was bragging
You broke too many hearts
You played so many parts
And now you sit all alone in the dark
Hiding your face behind a mask
In memories of you
I suffered in silence
Every single rule of love
You broke
Every promise you made
You shattered
I’ve moved on
Ever since you’ve been gone
Keep in mind that
Love once lost cannot be found.

God Be Blessed

2007-11-02T04:32:00.000-07:00

All that I know is this
That I am who I am
Because of you dear
All the time when I
Faced a lot of pain
It was only you
Who helped me gain
What would I be
If you didn’t see me
I give you all that I have
For that is all that I can
Give back for all that you did
Time after time
It’s the same thing
That I bring
With more love and care
I salute you for who you are
God be blessed
For you have given me the life
And now every second of it
I cherish
With no complaints
I pick up what’s left over bit by bit

Get Well Soon

2007-10-31T07:13:00.000-07:00

Please look after yourself
Don’t hesitate to ask me for help
I know that you’re not keeping well
I just hope that you take some time off
Just to get rid of your cough
You have got to put yourself first
I don’t want to see your temperature burst
Try not to strain much
Instead make yourself comfortable on a couch
Rest and medicine is what you need
Please just take heed
I appreciate you’re effort
But see to that you don’t end up getting hurt
Please take good care of yourself
And stack up those medicines back in the shelf
What I’m trying to say is
Get well soon

Cause you’re a boon.

This crazy little thing called love

2007-10-30T07:17:00.000-07:00

This story has jus begun
Don’t get up before it’s done
I’ve been trying to tell you
Something for sometime now
I’m lost for words
I have never felt this way before
I know this for sure
Well it has to come out one day
I might as well say it today
I dug my nails into my palm
And pretended as if all is calm
I can’t believe I have
Fallen in this crazy thing called love
I just hope I get a chance
To tell him what I think of him
But it seems impossible
For this to happen
You say it’s a waste of time
To get hooked and later regret
But how can you be so darn sure
I promise that things will never be the same
And this is not some stupid game
As I say this
I dug my nails into my palm
And pretended as if all is calm
I can’t believe I have Fallen in this crazy thing called love

What Is Wrong With You?

2007-10-30T06:42:00.001-07:00

What is wrong with you?
You look so worn out and blue
I was shocked to see you this way
Now please don’t turn away
Look at you all shabby and rugged
Do you even know that I care?
Now don’t tell me this was all a dare
You dipped your face into the wine
And shot some vodka the whole damn time
And now I know that you ain’t fine
Right now you trying so hard
To concentrate
But I know that it’s just so hard
To contemplate
You stopped looking straight
And looks like the drink
Made you the bait
You dipped your face into the wine
And shot some vodka the whole damn time
And now I know that you ain’t fine
It must have been a wild night
With whisky and wine controlling your sight
Shot after shot went down your throat
Glad that you ended up here
And not on a boat

All I Want For Christmas

2007-10-30T04:43:00.000-07:00

It’s a cold winter morning
I can hear the raindrops falling
Its Christmas time once again
And this year I will see no pain
Old things gone by
And new things comes to pass
All I want for Christmas is someone
That will last
As I pull out my note pad
I made a list of what I had
I never had what I wanted
But I want him for this Christmas
And ever more
I want to sit by the fireplace
Holding him tight
Watching his eyes shine like those Christmas lights
As the day slowly turns night
We dance away watching fireflies
A knock on the door
I heard my mom say get me some flour
I closed my notepad
And walked to the store
On my way back
I looked up at the sky
As raindrops fall right into my eye
I stood there praying
God I hope you’re listening

All I want for Christmas
Is that guy :)

Season Greetings

2007-10-30T04:29:00.000-07:00

Its time again winter has slowly begun
It’s time for us to have some fun
Every child every home is filled
With the festive spirit
As sweets and chocolates invade the fridge
Lights and candles brightens the room
As mama goes about cleaning with the broom
Joy and happiness fills our heart
And I pray that this never departs
Smiles across every strangers face
This seemed to be just the case
Peace and love is what we give
As we all learn to forgive
Everyday goes by
Planning for this special day
But lets not get carried away
Lets not forget the ones
Who can’t have all that we’ve got
But at least we can all share a little of what we bought
Let this day mark a new beginning
For the ones who thought this was the end
SEASON GREETINGS EVERYBODY!

In The End

2007-10-25T03:32:00.000-07:00

Do you feel like you've got noone
By your side
Trust me that aint something
That you've to hide
Dreams and wishes fills you up with hope
But in the end
You find it so hard to cope
You've now moved on with your life
So don't look back and be suprised
You've got all it takes to be a man
Beleive when others say you can
Stand up to what you beleive
When everything goes the other way
I'm sure that in the end
You will be merry and gay

To Be Or Not To Be

2007-10-19T07:22:00.000-07:00

To be or not to be
Is what people end up asking me
What started out as a joke
Has just begun to poke
I aint no kid
Don't look at me that way
There is something beyond work
Something that can be fun
So why do you always sit so still
Why can't you just get up and mingle
Is this who you really are
Or is this what you've become
Why do you always keep mum
Please oh please
Be at ease
You be the flower
And I'll be the bee.

Why Smoke?

2007-10-19T05:24:00.000-07:00

Rs 27 or more each day
That’s how much you pay
Standing by the window pane
What is it that you gain?
Why do you smoke?
And then choke
It ain’t no joke
For me to see you smoke
The way your health could deteriorate
Could be faster than that of
India’s growth rate
Be it Kings or Cuts (Navy)
One or two may be a must
But to go for a puff every hour
Takes you all the more far
I see you shake
As you stand
Wont it be better
If you didn’t have the cigarette
In your hand
You’re still young you know
Then why smoke?
Your life is precious
Don’t waste it all up
On a cigarette.

I Want To Know You More

2007-10-18T13:13:00.000-07:00

There is this guy
That I would like to know about
I wish there was something I could do
Sometimes I think I know it all
Sometimes I really wish I do
But there is something in his eyes
That makes me wonder
Why doesn't he smile
I cant let go
Till I get to Know you more
I've been waiting for so long
That I ended up writing a song
Where are you now
What have you done
Your body language
Speaks a lot about you
But I wouldnt believe it
Till I hear it from you
Don't keep me waiting
Cause I need to know
There are a thousand words
That I could say I am siting here
Writing this song
Just so that
One day you will know
How serious I am
About you.

Open Your Heart

2007-10-18T07:47:00.000-07:00

As I close my eyes I see your face
It’s an unusual feeling
As the dawn breaks
It’s you that I think of
Everyday
As I pack my bag
And leave for work
I search for you
To say goodbye
You hold me close
And Kiss my eyes
It means so much to me
To see you smile
So open your heart
And let me in
Let me Stay there
Deep within
Knowing that this is where I belong
Made me realize why I had to wait
For Long
You are not so far away
But if I miss you
I will go astray
There is a girl waiting for you
Waiting to hear you say
I love you
So open your heart
And let me in
Let me Stay there
Deep within
Right from the moment I saw you
I felt close but,
I need to feel your love
But am too scared to trust
Cause you seem so different
Let go let lose
Let me get to know you
The way I should
Cause you mean the world to me
Something that you should see
So open your heart
And let me in
Let me Stay there
Deep within

LOVE

2007-07-21T08:34:00.001-07:00

There is something in your eyes
That captures my sight
Jus your glance
Leaves me in a trance
What is in you is magical
The way you talk
Is out of this world
I cuddle up in my bed
And I close my eyes
All I can see is your face
Shining ever so bright
There is Love in your voice
That takes me by suprise
I go to bed wondering
When will the sun rise?!
There was sorrow in my soul
That left me lying cold
It was the touch of your hand
That comforted me
Your child like behavior
Is so dear to me
I love it when you’re by my side
This longing for you will always
Be there on the inside
When will I get to be near you next?
What I type now is not jus mere text
I mean what I sayHey, this is me saying I LOVE YOU!!

SONG OF INSPIRATION

2007-07-14T05:00:00.001-07:00

Everything can change
Within a wink
Friends or no friends
It’s all your choice
You can’t trust anybody
And that’s the best way to live
You think they all are there
Beside you
But you fool
They are just being cruel
Get up and get out
And live for yourself
That’s what this world deserves
Let your life end with your past
Let the last person you cared about
Be the one who left you
In a caste
If this is how u view life
Am sorry to tell you
That there is more to this
Trust me take it from me
I know what i'm talking about
But that’s not all of it
Look inside of yourself
And smile
You will see how beautiful you are
That’s the truth, realize it
So many people Love you
That aint no lie
So why wait
Spread your wings and fly
Come take my hand
I will show you how it works
I will help you out of the shackles
And help you realize the miracle
Come on, let’s not waste a minute
Not everybody you see is bad
Something that leaves you sad
I will be your friend in need
If you’re willing to sow the seed
This is a song of inspiration
For your depression
You are not alone
No one is
Come let us see what life has in store for us
And help each other clear our mess.

MELANCHOLY FILLS MY SOUL

2007-06-24T08:14:00.001-07:00

There is something in your eyes
That tells me you don’t want to leave my sight
How I wish to hear you say out loud
That you mean a lot
Now I know that’s something that will make me float
I call to hear your voice
And it’s not by choice
I hear you say hello
And my entire face glows
How happy you make me feel
To hear these words from you
Tring tring-tring tring!!!
I suddenly realize
That I am
Sitting in the balcony
Looking out
Melancholy fills my soul
So fast my past
Enters my mind
And I lose sight of what’s real in life
Ya it’s hard
What’s even harder is
When u feel u got no one by your side
Suddenly you become the butt of all jokes
When you actually care a lot for that one person
In the eyes of others
You end up being the impractical person
Hey, that’s me I give a lot to the heart’s desire
Than being all practical
All the time
Melancholy fills my soul
It jus does
Am not making a fuss
I just hope you understand y
And take the time out
To hold me tight
Without a fight
Can somebody do that for me?
And make me merry!!!!!!

MY ACCIDENT-THE POEM!!!

2007-06-12T02:50:00.000-07:00

It was jus another day
Making my way
With my cousin
On a shopping spree
All dressed up in causals
We were just the usuals
Walking down the road
And BAM outta nowhere
Came a bike and knocked me down
A huge crowd gathered
Like flocks of birds over some dead rat
And suddenly i realised
That I was the victim in Pain
Ohh...how bad it was
But everything happens for a cause
I got hospitalised
But was glad that I was alive
It was a big ordeal
And I saw my dear ones feel
But this is say to you
That am getting better now
Thank u all for being there
And for showing so much care
Thank u Jesus that I am here today
To share the miracle of yesterday

To all those who visit my profile

2007-05-28T07:50:00.000-07:00

This is for all thos e who visit my profile

THIS GIRL I KNEW

2007-05-24T11:06:00.001-07:00

I saw a small girl
Full of misery and pain
Too small to express herself
She gently would smile away
Her tiny hands
Hold on to the window panes
Looking out to see
Others like her
Flying kites and planes
How she wished
For people to embrace her
Thought they would cover her
Like a fur
She cries and cries into the night
Silent tears falling along her side
She remembers reading
That JESUS would collect all her tears
And that he would send an angel
To take away all her fears
It’s been so long
The girl now is all grown
Still she feels so little inside
Still her wishes lurking inside
Those aren’t met
How she wants to be someone special
To the one who wants to see her smile
This girl I knew
Has encountered more than we can imagine
Even now she hides herself from the outside world
Smiling from the outside
And crying from within
When will her dreams come to pass?
This girl I knew
She is feeling so blue
She has got no clue
No one to attend to her cries
The one she counts on
Doesn’t even stop to realize
The pain in her heart
That she’s unable to bear
Considers her a burden
And doesn’t even care
No sense of compassion
What so ever
Will she be all alone?
Now and forever?!

WHEN WILL MY TIME COME

2007-05-24T03:21:00.002-07:00

Sitting by the sunset
Waiting for my turn
To be loved
Waiting by the ocean
Longing for someone
To take notice
It’s been so long since I laughed
There is a part of me
That wants to hide away
The pain that I have endured
All I feel is hopelessness
Am the lost soul
Who is seeking control
Can you hear me cryin
My heart out
It was just yesterday
I told you how I felt
And so soon I can see that
You chose to ignore it all
When will my time come
Who will help me realize my dreams
Waiting for so long
Time has drifted away
Can you hear me say
When will my time come

FULL OF MYSELF

2007-05-24T03:21:00.001-07:00

Before I met you
I was drowning in my own tears
I stood near my balcony
Made a call to you
It was then I started
To believe in miracles
I felt so full of myself
For the first time
In a long time
You were the one
Who saw the pain
You reached out for me
Before anyone could see
What I was going through
I received my salvation
No that ain’t no fashion
You understand my desires
My passions my dreams
I rest them all
In your hands now
Cause I feel so full of myself
For the first time
In a long time
You were the one
Who saw the pain
You reached out for me
Before anyone could see
What I was going through

OTHER WORLD

2007-05-18T11:26:00.000-07:00

This is me, all that u can see
Is the happy side of me
I have waited too long
For u to come along
I have found something
That keeps me going
I ain’t no quitter
But, I know the experience is bitter
There is another world
A world of laughter and joy
I get to have what I needed
All that I have been wanting
Is right here by my side
I hate to wake up and see
That the other world is just a dream
Oh, how I wish it could be real
Sitting by the ocean I dream on
Slowly swaying and singing alone
I know I will be free one day
Will get everything I longed for
Just like the water waiting to hit the shore
Till then all that I have got is the other world
A world of laughter and joy
I get to have what I needed
All that I have been wanting
Is right here by my side
I hate to wake up and see
That the other world is just a dream
Oh, how I wish it could be real

IT'S TOO LATE

2007-05-16T10:40:00.000-07:00

There she was pleading
To everyone who was close to her
To hear her desperate cry for help
She was all alone
All by herself
People couldn't hear her cry in the darkness
She locks the door
Sheds her tears
Cause of her fears
They all just chose to be there
But no one really cared
All that she felt was
A needle nailed to her heart
How people talk to her just for time pass
No one really cared for her
No one was really there
Excuses and lies
Are the things they have to give her
I tell you, make her feel alright
Before it's too late
Think for once
What if she dies?
How would you feel?
Do not forget there is nothing you can do
To get her back
So, make her feel alright
Before it's too late
Please have time for her
Take heed of her despiration
And act according to the situation
Before it's too late

TIDE IS HIGH

2007-05-13T02:57:00.000-07:00

I thought for myself
About the promises you made
You were all about yourself
How sick you make me feel
I have never come across
Any person like you
You are the one I would love to sue
The tide is high
It’s gonna pass me by
I don’t need you by my side
I tried so hard
But, you didn’t even care
Now I take away my entire share
I put my trust in you
It was such a waste
Now for all this
I give my final kiss
Man, I am never gonna miss
Every thing that you did
The tide is high
It’s gonna pass me by
I don’t need you by my side
You are a loser
So, don’t you come any closer
This is the end of you and I
Here you go- buh-bye

BE BY MY SIDE

2007-05-11T08:31:00.000-07:00

I’m searching for the answers
To all of my questions
On my mind
I have been alone
Waited by the phone
When will you be by my side?
Cause, you don’t know how much you mean to me
Every time you are down
You know that you can count on me
It doesn’t matter what’s on your mind
But please just be kind
Is there something in your heart?
That you going share
Cause it’s only me
Who, will show you all the care
I have been searching
For the right time
Be by my side
Cause, you don’t know how much you mean to me
Every time you are down
You know that you can count on me
It doesn’t matter what’s on your mind
But please just be kind

MY FINAL GOOD BYE

2007-05-07T08:40:00.000-07:00

It’s such a pain
That I am leaving
I can’t take the way
You have hurt me
And it’s bleeding
You have hurt my feeling
So am going
Cause you are throwing
I gotta let you go now
All that is left in me is my pride
Well I am now done with your ride
So much time you have wasted
Now that’s something I have always hated
Stop playing
Now your blaming
I gotta leave you alone
You are a big fat lie
Don’t you act like you are shy
And this is my final good bye
Cause am going to reach for the skies

YOU ARE MY ONLY ONE

2007-05-06T02:24:00.001-07:00

I like to see you get close to me
And I want you to be
There is nothing here
But you my dear
And a broken heart inside
Cause your eyes
Tells that you will hide
But, all I have got to give to you
Are these fine words of mine
You are my only one
For being with me, Oh
When everything is done
For lifting me up
When I would give up
You are my only one
Yes you are my only one
I never knew it would be true
Until the reason was you
And when I look at my past
Time has past so fast
I cross my heart
I was just an art
And I tried to make believe
What I just told was lies
You are my only one
For being with me, Oh
When everything is done
For lifting me up
When I would give up
You are my only one
Yes you are my only one

I BELONG TO YOU

2007-05-06T01:33:00.001-07:00

I belong to you
I live my life the way you want me to
You are my desire -The fire
Lord take me higher
Keep us safe under your wings
Brighten our days Lord let us sing
I belong to you
Do you feel the way I do
You give us your love
The holy spirit decended on you like a dove
Show us your way oh Lord
For we beleive that you are our God
I belong to you
I surrender myself to you
We will make some space
That you may fill us with your grace
You will never leave us nor forsake us
Now, that's a promise you made to us

SONG OF PRAISE

2007-05-05T10:32:00.000-07:00

There's a song of praise
And it's full of grace
Just to JESUS I cry out aloud
I was what I am
And now I know what I can
Lord, finally you made me a man
Before I found you
I was lost
But now i can't lose you at any cost
My heart goes out for all of your splended deeds
Now i am going to meet others needs
People know that he offers something that's free
Which will help you grow like a tree
Salvation is what he offers
So dont be just choppers
Make use of what you have
For it could be your last chance
If you wanna continue to dance

WHAT THIS WORLD NEEDS

2007-05-05T09:36:00.000-07:00

Lord, I give myself to you
I love everything you do
Your the one this world needs
It's your words that I read
You heal the broken hearted
Something that which was shattered
Your what this world needs
It is your love that I breathe
I will do my part
I will keep what you said in my heart
You shed your blood
You died on the cross
For the sins I did
But,Lord you treat me as your own kid
You are what this world needs
I pray that one day people will take heed

I MISS WHAT WE HAD

2007-05-05T09:00:00.000-07:00

We used to be the best of friends
Which later became a trend
We used to bright up
Every little place
But now that's not the case
I try to tell you this simple thing
But haven't found the right way
To put it in
People around us got jelous
Of what they saw in us
However, we will have to clean this mess
Cause I miss what we had
I beleive we realised it today
That we can change all that
And make it the way it used to be
How nice it was when it was just you and me
Sacrifise and understanding is what is needed
Now that's something that has to be heeded
I want to change things over
Make it the way it was during the last call
Come lets chill out in the hall
I feel so bad
Cause I miss out on what we had

MY INVISIBLE FRIEND

2007-05-04T16:55:00.000-07:00

I have a best friend
That no one can see
Who's always by my side
And a one who never hides
He is with me when i fall
Cause he always attends my call
He is the one who knows about me
He is with me when am down
He tells me what should be done
At times i tend to listen to him
But mostly i don't
That is when i come to tell
That deacon i just fell
Suprise that he doesn't yell
But instead just holds me tight
And tells me to forget the fight
He's always buzy with work
But makes time for me
For he knows that I keep him first
And he thanks me for it
He says that it just means a lot
That I run back to him no matter what
I trouble him with all my worries and fears
Inspite of his tiring day
He gets back to wipe my tears
I know he is the one I can count on
Even when others are gone

SOMEONE TO TALK TO

2007-05-04T15:18:00.000-07:00

It's late at night
People around me are sleeping
I was too untill it became two
Expectations woke me up
And now I am left with a widen eye
I tried to fall asleep
But eyes wouldnt rest
Even when I am safe in my own nest
I need someone to talk to me
To take me and let me be
But that's when I realise I got noting
I know what reply i will get
So it's better that I don't fret
There is always an excuse
I should have known
And you think you are one big don
Everytime I have to say something
You turn me down
When you put the question back to me
I end up writing a song

THANK YOU FOR BEING MY FRIEND

2007-05-04T09:58:00.000-07:00

This is a song
And it goes out to you
For holding me up
In times of blue
You are a true friend I treasure
One that I can't measure
You stand by me and wipe my tears
Hold me close and Take away my fears
When you stand in a crowd
You make me so proud
For keeping the things i said in your mind
It shows that you are just so kind
You are one friend who's hard to find
Thank you for all that you have done
You have made it completly fun
It has been a rollercoaster ride
But we have crossed that tide
Thank you for being my friend
Inspite of the things that I have to mend

YOU NEVER VALUED ME

2007-05-04T09:37:00.000-07:00

I have always looked upto you

Like a small child

For all the small and big things in life

I keep you first even though i fight

You are the one who first catches my sight

You seem so nice when your by my side

But, otherwise i see you hide

I wait I wait I wait for your call

And you end up seeing me fall

I feel you never valued me

I get angry and upset about few things

And i tell them to you

But it ends up being shatterd

Cause you think I am cold hearted

A STORY UNTOLD

2007-05-04T06:11:00.002-07:00

It’s a bright Sunday morning
A girl sits down to think
About the things she has faced
All through her life
She thinks of the battle and the scars
And about those who don’t seem to understand
Where she stands
She cries out for help
But they act deaf
She sheds her tears
And they shut their eyes
Everyday she thinks she can tell her feeling
But she just ends up bleeding
The scars are many
The helpers are few
The hurt is bad
That makes her sad
She expects a lot
But ends up getting shot
Every time she thinks she’s got what she wants
She seems so happy
That she goes back into being a baby
But It’s all short lived
When she realizes that it just stays for two minutes
She’s scared to open her mouth
Because she knows that they will shout
But who else has she got
Still, it makes no difference to them
And they don’t want to treat her like gem
If anything happens, they pull out her past
And that’s something that they all do so fast
Night falls and she goes to her bed weeping
Hoping to tell her story untold
That makes her feel so cold

YOU ARE NOT ALONE

2007-05-04T06:11:00.001-07:00

You might feel like you got no one now
But that’s not for long
I dedicate this song
Cause you are not alone
No one understands what I say
No one knows how much I care
And they just stare
I tell I tell I tell
They yell and yell and yell
What do I do at times like this?
When I can hear them hiss
I feel my emotions are worthless
For someone who thinks I am a mess
Stop, don’t talk further
Tell me, what is it that you want?
And she says, I just don’t wanna be alone
How it crushes my heart to see
For someone to be like me

A HEART'S CRY

2007-05-04T02:26:00.001-07:00

What is it that I see?
I say to myself, who can it be?
A girl who sits alone in her room
Waiting upon the full bright moon
She gazes at the stars and sings
Till it’s heard by all the kings
Oh, how I wish to see her smile
By anyone who feels for her pain
But, they all feel there isn’t much to gain
Don’t worry little girl
It will all be jus fine
Just hold on tight
And forget the fight
Talk to me when you got know one
For to you I am someone
Share you feelings with me
And you will see
That you u mean more to me
Than what you see

MY SONG TO JESUS

2007-05-03T11:08:00.000-07:00

I search into my heart
And I see what you are
You have blessed me
With life most abundantly
I sing praises to you
I am one among the few
Lord, let your light shine through
I have been up and down
You have seen me frown
You made me what I am today
And I have only got myself to blame for my yesterday
Come Lord JESUS, come and make me whole
That you may fill my soul
I am not giving up during the days of my trials
For I know Lord my God is by my side
I know you will guide me safely through this wilderness
And I will try not to make a mess
Let your name alone be glorified
From all of the sides
Lord I give this song to you
A song that says I LOVE YOU

WHO IS HE?

2007-05-03T11:06:00.000-07:00

Who is he?
Who means the world to me?
I want you all to see
The life he has given me
JESUS, you’re awesome
Lord when will you come?

Who is he?
Who has given his love to me?
He’s the one who made my path straight
That which changed my fate
Thank you Lord JESUS
Thank you for the love you gave

You came into this world
And gave us light
But, yet I see most people fight
Lord, I ask u please turn your sight
And let us fly as high as a kite

JUST BEING ME

2007-05-03T08:47:00.001-07:00

I laugh, I cry, I smile
I hit, I yell, I scream
They all seem to complain
But hey that's just being me

I care, I help, I reach
I write, I draw, I paint
They all seem to know
That it’s just being me

I dance, I sing, I play
I make, I give, I say
They all seem to frown
Cause I am just being me

WHAT HAVE YOU DONE

2007-05-03T08:46:00.000-07:00

What have you done?
What have you done to me?
I feel so lovely inside
It's just a feeling of pride
Up above on cloud No 9
I feel just so fine
Thank you for being so kind
And helping me read my own mind

What have you done?
What have you done to me?
I have been so naughty at times
That you often mime
I feel so funny
When you call be bunny
It's been a long walk
So, let’s just continue to talk

BE ALRIGHT

2007-05-03T08:45:00.001-07:00

Get up, open your eyes, it’s a brand new day outside
Stop! Don't look back, and make a crack

What has happened has happened
Let us face today together
For I'm here by your side
To lift you up and say- Be alright

I try, but I fail, what can be done to me?
I feel, so helpless, that I could die

I will, help you out, and make you feel
the way you should
You are my, precious one, don't turn back

I will be right here looking out for you
Make a way that I may work with you
I am not stopping till I see you smile
All the while, want to see you smile