My Man - My World

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My man - My world


The only man in the world
That means more than the world itself
I stand here, like a ricochet
Been hit, but unwilling to fall.

Are you serious? Tell me, tell me now
I will stand by you no matter what
I care not what you can give or do for me
I'm just tried of being shot 

It ain't no joke when I said I fall for you
I loved you at your worst
You should know it from before
I can sure as hell love you more now
But are you willing to give it more than just a shot?

Don't test and try me
I am open as I can be
Yes, I could have chosen anybody
But, it has always been you, can't you see?

If you are doubting me for my past
It wasn't by choice
I would have stuck to you like glue
I would have even been your voice

I don't know what you are going through
I am not the one to judge
All I ask of you is to let me in
Please don't ask me to budge

You don't have to talk aloud
But don't be without saying much
I'm going all out for you
In return, be my clutch?

Miles away from my past
You walked right through
I didn't even think twice to say,
Baby, I love you!

Don't doubt it now
I am in deep waters, it's quite a sight
Let me not drown here
Let me not be the yellow traffic light.

 

To go back in time and imagine today
Your heart must have been heavy
Knowing you are to be betrayed
With a kiss

You had one last supper
With your chosen ones
Reminding them to remember you
Until you come

You were handed over
For nothing you did
All to fulfil your father’s will
And all they could do was stand still

Beaten and bruised, you bled
In pain you cried to the father
And you said
It is finished and breathed your last breath

Taken to a tomb near by
Wrapped in linen cloth and spice
They mourned the loss
Not realizing the greater cause

Then it happened, they rejoiced
You rose again
Reminding us everyday
We are worth the pain

O death, where is your sting?
O death, where is your victory?
O Wait, our savior is alive
He overcame the world

We’ll survive, we’ll survive

On my knees with my hands raised up
I look above and begin to cry
My God, what have I done wrong?
Desperately seeking for answers, through the phone

None could make me better
Though they tried
There was something more to this
Than what meets the eye

Your words pierced through my flesh
And I began to hear, you said
You are my daughter
Why do you fear?

The one who walks on water
Never sleeps nor slumbers
This is my promise to you
You don't need to ponder

Lo and Behold
As I do a new thing
None can comprehend
The magnitude of what I am about to send

But to whom much is given
Much is required
But, its through these afflictions
You will finally acquire

I carried you away to a land
Where you have none
For you will know it is me
When I say, it is done









Are you going through life, feeling like a reject?
Does it feel like someone else reaped your harvest?
Do you feel like you have been pushed into darkness
For helping others out?
And you ask, how is this fair?

Are you constantly judged for who you are and the choices you make?
Are you waiting for someone's approval or acceptance?
I was, and I even began to wonder, how bad this world can be?
Is there really a saviour who can hear me?

Then one day, I am shown the way
I realise, he is the way, the truth and the life.
That in his love, there is light and it shines through me, yes me!
Through him I am made new, let the world judge
I am no longer of this world
For I am made new in Christ.

My past he remembers no more, my sins wiped clean
How I look, where I come from, what I wear
Is not what he sees.
So, I don't get irked by others if that is what they see in me.
For, when in Christ, I ought to see the heart of people, just as he does.
And not judge them for their outward appearance.

If you are not accepted by someone
Pray for them, for Jesus accepts everyone,
Loves everyone and even has a plan for everyone
All you need to do is confess and surrender
And just like that, you are made new
For you are bought by his blood, paid in full
To live a life in complete joy, for his glory.





I'm His Child

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Just stop a moment, stay still
You are breathing
You are alive
Forget the world around you for just a minute
Forget your pain, forget your problems
Close your eyes, remain still
What do you see?

I see grace, I see mercy
I see where I was and I see where I am
In all my brokenness, he picked me up
He decided my birth place
He decided my birth parents
He chose me and told me I am his child.

From when I was ten years old
I sought after love and affection
I would blindly trust anyone
Who says anything nice to me
Naive, is how I would describe me
But he calls me his child.

It took me eight years after knowing Jesus
To finally give myself up
To pick up that cross and walk
I have seen rejection, I have been betrayed
I have been used and have been abused
And, I continue to see it more, now that I am his.

I'd want to give up
My ego is bruised
But a small still voice, gives me hope
Reminds me, though they reject you
You are accepted and belong to the king
Who died and rose again, what are you afraid of?

Though they reject you, you are not alone
You may be ignored, you may be a laughing stock
But he who is on the throne is faithful
You are his precious, he knows his sheep
He knows your heart, so stop and stay still
You are breathing, you are alive
And he calls you his child.







You feel like the weight of the world
Is resting on your chest
You feel helpless and tired
Trying to shake it off,  trying to be the best
The pain, the hurt is too much to bear
All you needed in return was some care

What do you do?
When the battle is between the flesh and the Spirit
What do you do?
When the flesh is after the same person the spirit is

I'll tell you, you don't give into the flesh
You run off to your secret place
Begin to worship as you wait
What is of the spirit he will fulfil
At his appointed time, as per his will













You don't have to understand it all
You don't have to put your life on hold
In his house you shall stay
Until he says, it's time to give my daughter away

In the natural, its all falling apart
But don't try to fix for its not your part
So, run off to your secret place
Begin to worship as you wait
What is of the spirit he will fulfil
At his appointed time, as per his will.

In that wonderful day, you will sing
Thank the Lord! Praise His Name!
The world will know, what he has done
For it cannot be denied by anyone.









Million Years

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By the meadow, I see a house
I've seemed to have forgotten where I was
surrounded by lupines, daisies and clovers
I was there lying down amongst the flowers

Little by little the dew drops fall
From a far I hear you call
A gentle smile on my face
I begin to run through the maze

As I run, these thoughts cross my mind......

My heart beats fast
Knowing that things would last
There is no doubt on my mind
Restoration is one of a kind

You paint my world
With colors of happiness
The night's still cold
I know you'd  catch me
If I were to fall

One thing you ought to know
Is my love for you has grown
Like never before

I got nothing to offer but these words
I hope you realize
You are the song that my heart never denies

I finally reach the house and I see.....

I see you stand by the door
Waiting for me
A silent kiss on my cheek
As I slowly breathe
This is what we need
Its something we both fancied

By the pool with our drink
We dance away
The stars, the moon and the trees
They sway away
Wishing for a Million Years
and for another million more




Here I am with yet another song
A silent whisper for the angels to sing along
This is your day, if I may say
I am empty handed on your b’day

I have no presents, I have no cards
I have nothing to offer you
Except my regards

My wish for you is a secret prayer
For God will open doors in my favor

The good Lord will bless and keep you
And will make all your dreams come alive
For he alone will open doors
And make things alright

Happy B’day dear friend
Where ever you may be
Although I am not a part of this day
I can’t stop myself from wishing you
Happy Birthday


Have there been times when you felt lonely?
Have there been times when you felt like giving in?
Have there been times when you no longer had the strength to carry on?
And have there been times when you just felt like dying?

When things around you are put to question
And when you seem to be under the bad light
Take heed and stand for what you believe in
For you aren't liable and you don't have to let go without a fight

It's easy when you have friends who can back you up
Trust you no matter what and remain the same
Fight for you and fight for what you've got
And not pack you up and use you like some old stock

Galling situations surround me
Been cut off like some no good tree
Yet I believe that everything is going to be alright
This forever won't be the plight

This test of your faith will pass
As long you have no doubt about the past
There is nothing to be afraid of or hold grudge against
And you can be sure for everything to outlast

Everything is going to be alright
I am sure it will all work together for good
And no true friendship
Will go without being understood

At Times...

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No longer a foreigner in an unknown turf
I say with poise
You my love ain’t just a choice

Life isn’t easy, life ain’t the same
Every day a struggle
It’s everybody’s game

In times of trouble, in times of pain
We stick together
Knowing there is so much to gain

One thing you ought to know
Is my love for you has grown
Like never before

I got nothing to offer but these words
I hope you realize
You are the song that my heart never denies

Whatever happens I am with you
Through thick and thin
I want you too

This time around I won’t shut you down
When I move about aimlessly
At times of want.


Could you be of any use?
To help prevent child abuse
Let me ask you, first!
Are you aware of what a child goes through?

It could be you or anyone you know
It could be someone who you care or don't care about
Yet it's a child who is abused!
Let not any precious child go through this
Let's act! Let me know?
Together we can fight this
Let us fight for this cause

What is it? Why is it? Who does it? One might ask
Let not your ignorance spoil a Child's life.
Act Now! Let's do it now!
Let me shed some light, if not now, the child will shed its life!
Let me tell you
Let us fight for the Child's fright!

One child tortured with many chores
It hits them at their heart, flesh and bones!
Working in hotels and houses and suffering behind closed doors
Fight Physical abuse
One feeling left out all alone in the cold
Helpless and shattered not knowing where to go
Racial Neglect!
One being molested and threatened
Sexually harassed and beaten
Fight Sexual abuse
One having to hear everything that a child doesn't want to hear
Forced to listen to harsh and filthy words
Caught in the worst trap
Fight Emotional abuse
Its happening I know, I know
Because I've been there! I've seen it! I know for sure
Now, I wish to be the cure.
Let us be a cue for the cure.

I am writing this ode today
To bring out the reality
For us to see
The price an innocent child pays.

Let us act now!
Before it's too late
What ever little effort you take
Would be great
Let our energies focus towards the cause!
Not for anyone, not for you, not for me, not for the society.
But for the CHILD! Let's make their lives better.
Save them from the snares of the devil
Come on now, Let us do this
Let us act now!
Give them a bigger and a brighter future.




She was small, hardly ten years old
Heard the stories seen them all
She was too young to understand any of this
but she quickly matured before the other kids did
Every time and when in pain
You can see her crying in the rain


There she goes
Out in the pouring rain
The only time where she opens up
her little heart carrying all the pain
This little girl goes
Goes on crying in the rain


She didn't know her family well
Had no proper upbringing
She thought she was living in hell
Lived behind closed doors
With no fairytale stories
Just a barren life filled with remorse


There she goes
Out in the pouring rain
The only time where she opens up
her little heart carrying all the pain
This little girl goes
Goes on crying in the rain


No-one knew what she was going through
She was a mystery except for a few
Every time she wanted to cry
She would look out the window
With arms open wide
Silently wishing for the heavens to cry


There she goes
Out in the pouring rain
The only time where she opens up
her little heart carrying all the pain
This little girl goes
Goes on crying in the rain


Clear drops from the sky
Mixes with the tears from her eyes
She lets the rain whisper sweet nothings
Before she bids them all good-bye


Breaking Free

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What kind of life would it be?
If I had to stay here
Just to make believe
Tell you what now baby
This ship is sailing away
And am sorry but you don’t have a say
Is this your attitude?
You might ask
I don’t have a choice
I don’t want to wear a mask
I am breaking free from all this crap
This is not a relationship
This is a trap
People, wake up and see
If you really have what you need
Don’t be the prey
Just cause your weak
Instead be poised, be meek
Guess this is something to think about
I don’t know for sure
But I still gave it a thought
Made me realize I was caught
I decided to break open the shackles
I was caught in and opted to move out
No regrets what so ever
I just think I am smart enough to be clever.

POVERTY.

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Across the nations, over the sea
People unite in agony
Fighting for survival
In all that they see
Break the walls down of poverty
United we stand, banners fly
Protestors are left high and dry
Poverty the birthplace for vexation
Can’t blame the poor souls
They are drowning in deep depression
The fight goes on and on
As Ngo’s and Governments
Answer the phone
Do we see a solution at sight?
Or is poverty soaring as high as a kite.

I was at work when suddenly dark clouds covered the big blue sky. I was freezing as the temperature in my bay dropped to almost 19 degree. The climate forced me to draw out my note pad. Thankfully, it was lunch time in Europe and I had sometime on my hand. I walked out and sat on the stairway looking out the window I began to write...

“The scent of Love, its profound meaning
I saw it in you, as I rested for a while
Your breath on my neck and the warmth of your kiss
Took me by surprise – a sinful bliss
Don’t ask me why
Don’t ask me how
We always end up together somewhere somehow
I search my heart for some old memories
I am not surprised to see, they are now just some old can of cherries”.

The sky was so dark and the wind was blowing hard when, suddenly the skies opened and it began to pour down heavily. The climate was so romantic and sadly I was at work. All I could do to enjoy this climate was to put my imagination to some good use. I chuckled for some reason and started to pen down my next set of lines...

“I stand there in the balcony, facing the sea.
Waiting for you to gently come and hug me
Whisper in my ears, sweetie here’s your cup of tea
I turn to you and you say - the night looks naughty indeed
The touch of your hand
Triggers an unusual feeling with in me
Honey, I enjoy every moment you spend with me”.

Well well well, what do you know; it was time for me to go. I had a few calls to make and I wanted to keep the flow alive. Quickly, I shifted to my "work mode" and made those calls. Had a few good conversations and it was time for me to go. For some weird reason even before I completed the poem I knew it would be my favorite piece of work. I was home and climate was still lovely. I read through what I wrote and started to continue regaining the flow I wrote...

“Slowly, together we move to the couch
When suddenly I scream – OUCH!
You sat on my finger I laughed out loud
Sssshhh… the night’s fresh and there’s no crowd
I saw you chuckle as you uttered those blissful words out
I saw your eyes shine bright
I just couldn’t ignore your sight”.

I was getting in to the mood and suddenly my cell phone rings. “Hello…Oh hi, what’s up?” I end up having a long conversation with one of my close friend. Chit chatting late in to the night, I love having such conversations it’s always fun. Now, come on am sure y’all would agree with me on this one. Anyways, it was at this time I thought of rendering this poem in a different way and as I ended the conversation I went back in to working on my little master piece... (chuckle)

“We laid there watching the world go by
Am I testing your patience sweet sugar – Oh my!
The things you do, I’d love to see
Baby you never fail to amuse me
Holding your hands I say this to you
Some of my dreams I wish to share with you”.

It was late night. I went online, caught up with my ‘late night crawlers’, visiting my orkut pages, having some pleasant chat, drinking little wine and working on my poem. Oh, yeah!! I was still in the flow. I have written a lot of love/romantic poems in the past but, with this one I wanted to project the whole thing in a BOLD way, heat things up a bit and show some maturity in my writing style. I start imagining again, and I began to jot down a few lines...

“Take me in to a province that’s just ours
Where we can while away time and spend hours
Holding me in your arms – making love
Sweet talking all day all night long
I rested my head on your chest
I can hear your heartbeat, I feel your sweat
I raise my head to look in to your lovely eyes
Honey, let’s just become victims of the night
Making new memories – Lets delight
Thousand kisses with little fights”.

I was totally charged up all excited about this poem. I knew it was special for me and I wanted to post it on the 1st of June. Just so it could be the first poem of this month. So, here I am working on the last portion watching the match the final of the IPL, trying to keep my cool and my sense of imagination alive but, the intensity of the match is getting me all worked up,praying hard on the inside for Chennai to win the match and closing my eyes to picture the scene for me to start writing again...

“To lay there with him to watch him smile
His sweet smell of scent takes me miles
I love it when he puts his arms around me
And secures me tight
The night feels so complete when your right here by my side”.


Summer's Heat

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With the summer's heat knocking on my door
With winter's breeze far behind
I sit here with my glass of wine
Cooling myself with soothing music
knowing that tomorrows another day of sun shine

I make a big deal out of travelling to work
In an insane hour - 12 pm to be precise
With summer's heat draining every bit of my energy
I just can't come to terms with winter being so far off
the summer's heat - a reason for people's sad demise

Close to about 40 minutes in the sun
Makes me complain
Not stopping to think about the ones
Who work in this heat
Just to ensure we get our grains

So let’s look at the other side
Do not be so self centered
It's not a joke when others say
That someone’s hard work
Goes un noticed when things are taken for granted.


It’s 2 in the morning
I ain’t asleep
I walk to my balcony
Just to feel the cold breeze
I pull up my bean bag
I cuddle up there
Gaze at the stars
Silently wishing I was there
I tried to close my eyes
To dream for a while
But the sky was so attractive
Forced me to watch the clouds go by
Passing through the moon
It looked so fine
I covered myself with my blanky
I was having a good time
I also remembered that I have friends
Who leave work at this time
But the world they see
Is so very different from mine

PREMONITION

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Take just a minute
And ask yourself this
What do I need?
To surpass this
Feeling of distress
Consume my cry
I feel at sea
Or is it just me?
We have all been there
I know for sure
Each one has a different way
To find that cure
Every hassle every strive
You have got to go through the battle
And come out with pride
Premonitions are part of life
Ruling your thoughts
From all four sides
Interpret it properly
You will see it unravel befittingly.

TWINGE.

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Searching for love
Through the day
Fighting pain
Through the night
Things change, people change
But the plight forever will be the same

Digging deep into the past
Trying to resolve unsolved emotions
Puts one in a delicate position
With no perfect present
Time didn’t wait, wounds never healed
But one moves on along with the memories

No one knows what the future holds
Tomorrow is far away
To survive this twinge
Is a battle on its own
Will someone be there?
Will someone be there for me today?


Every soul is precious
Every cry is heard
But still I see deaf ears
And eyes with fake tears
People dressed in white
Are not angels in disguise
When was the last time?
They ever did something right

Drought, hunger and death
Are all set to strike
What is your take on this?
Are you even willing to fight?
Debates, discussions, interviews
Is not the answer for this?
Put your words into action
And maybe this time you won’t miss


You are the chosen one
Elected by the people
The whole nation looks up to you
But all you do is kill
Go out there and do what is right
People dressed in white
You have the power
In which you take pride
Use it to hear the torment and cry
Of the minority
Who are depressed and deprived.

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