Revelation

She was small, hardly ten years old
Heard the stories seen them all
She was too young to understand any of this
but she quickly matured before the other kids did
Every time and when in pain
You can see her crying in the rain

There she goes
Out in the pouring rain
The only time where she opens up
her little heart carrying all the pain
This little girl goes
Goes on crying in the rain

She didn't know her family well
Had no proper upbringing
She thought she was living in hell
Lived behind closed doors
With no fairytale stories
Just a barren life filled with remorse

There she goes
Out in the pouring rain
The only time where she opens up
her little heart carrying all the pain
This little girl goes
Goes on crying in the rain

No-one knew what she was going through
She was a mystery except for a few
Every time she wanted to cry
She would look out the window
With arms open wide
Silently wishing for the heavens to cry

There she goes
Out in the pouring rain
The only time where she opens up
her little heart carrying all the pain
This little girl goes
Goes on crying in the rain

Clear drops from the sky
Mixes with the tears from her eyes
She lets the rain whisper sweet nothings
Before she bids them all good-bye

What kind of life would it be?
If I had to stay here
Just to make believe
Tell you what now baby
This ship is sailing away
And am sorry but you don’t have a say
Is this your attitude?
You might ask
I don’t have a choice
I don’t want to wear a mask
I am breaking free from all this crap
This is not a relationship
This is a trap
People, wake up and see
If you really have what you need
Don’t be the prey
Just cause your weak
Instead be poised, be meek
Guess this is something to think about
I don’t know for sure
But I still gave it a thought
Made me realize I was caught
I decided to break open the shackles
I was caught in and opted to move out
No regrets what so ever
I just think I am smart enough to be clever.

I was at work when suddenly dark clouds covered the big blue sky. I was freezing as the temperature in my bay dropped to almost 19 degree. The climate forced me to draw out my note pad. Thankfully, it was lunch time in Europe and I had sometime on my hand. I walked out and sat on the stairway looking out the window I began to write...

“The scent of Love, its profound meaning
I saw it in you, as I rested for a while
Your breath on my neck and the warmth of your kiss
Took me by surprise – a sinful bliss
Don’t ask me why
Don’t ask me how
We always end up together somewhere somehow
I search my heart for some old memories
I am not surprised to see, they are now just some old can of cherries”.

The sky was so dark and the wind was blowing hard when, suddenly the skies opened and it began to pour down heavily. The climate was so romantic and sadly I was at work. All I could do to enjoy this climate was to put my imagination to some good use. I chuckled for some reason and started to pen down my next set of lines...

“I stand there in the balcony, facing the sea.
Waiting for you to gently come and hug me
Whisper in my ears, sweetie here’s your cup of tea
I turn to you and you say - the night looks naughty indeed
The touch of your hand
Triggers an unusual feeling with in me
Honey, I enjoy every moment you spend with me”.

Well well well, what do you know; it was time for me to go. I had a few calls to make and I wanted to keep the flow alive. Quickly, I shifted to my "work mode" and made those calls. Had a few good conversations and it was time for me to go. For some weird reason even before I completed the poem I knew it would be my favorite piece of work. I was home and climate was still lovely. I read through what I wrote and started to continue regaining the flow I wrote...

“Slowly, together we move to the couch
When suddenly I scream – OUCH!
You sat on my finger I laughed out loud
Sssshhh… the night’s fresh and there’s no crowd
I saw you chuckle as you uttered those blissful words out
I saw your eyes shine bright
I just couldn’t ignore your sight”.

I was getting in to the mood and suddenly my cell phone rings. “Hello…Oh hi, what’s up?” I end up having a long conversation with one of my close friend. Chit chatting late in to the night, I love having such conversations it’s always fun. Now, come on am sure y’all would agree with me on this one. Anyways, it was at this time I thought of rendering this poem in a different way and as I ended the conversation I went back in to working on my little master piece... (chuckle)

“We laid there watching the world go by
Am I testing your patience sweet sugar – Oh my!
The things you do, I’d love to see
Baby you never fail to amuse me
Holding your hands I say this to you
Some of my dreams I wish to share with you”.

It was late night. I went online, caught up with my ‘late night crawlers’, visiting my orkut pages, having some pleasant chat, drinking little wine and working on my poem. Oh, yeah!! I was still in the flow. I have written a lot of love/romantic poems in the past but, with this one I wanted to project the whole thing in a BOLD way, heat things up a bit and show some maturity in my writing style. I start imagining again, and I began to jot down a few lines...

“Take me in to a province that’s just ours
Where we can while away time and spend hours
Holding me in your arms – making love
Sweet talking all day all night long
I rested my head on your chest
I can hear your heartbeat, I feel your sweat
I raise my head to look in to your lovely eyes
Honey, let’s just become victims of the night
Making new memories – Lets delight
Thousand kisses with little fights”.

I was totally charged up all excited about this poem. I knew it was special for me and I wanted to post it on the 1st of June. Just so it could be the first poem of this month. So, here I am working on the last portion watching the match the final of the IPL, trying to keep my cool and my sense of imagination alive but, the intensity of the match is getting me all worked up,praying hard on the inside for Chennai to win the match and closing my eyes to picture the scene for me to start writing again...

“To lay there with him to watch him smile
His sweet smell of scent takes me miles
I love it when he puts his arms around me
And secures me tight
The night feels so complete when your right here by my side”.

Take just a minute
And ask yourself this
What do I need?
To surpass this
Feeling of distress
Consume my cry
I feel at sea
Or is it just me?
We have all been there
I know for sure
Each one has a different way
To find that cure
Every hassle every strive
You have got to go through the battle
And come out with pride
Premonitions are part of life
Ruling your thoughts
From all four sides
Interpret it properly
You will see it unravel befittingly.

It is so clear
The breath of life is here
I don't want to miss out on it
Like I did the last time
What makes me say this
Is what I feel inside
That everyone of us is special
And there is nothing to hide
At times we can just feel so low and blue
Feel worthless without a clue
Look deep within you
And your sure to find something new
I am just a small town girl
With dreams and hopes
Got no clue of what to expect
Got no idea about who I am yet
I just hope that I can make a difference
In some one's life
Be there around them to make things right
Random thoughts running in my mind
But my words are true
So let them shine

The world is full of people
Too busy with their lives
Well am not an exception to this
But I see to that I don't lose sight
On my way to work
I saw few people fight
I could only say to myself
That this world is in desperate need for help
People always have time for themselves
But not for their loved ones
This shows we live in a selfish world
With a lot of self centered people around
Things have got to change
But where does one start?
Stop, don't turn to your neighbour
Why don't you make the start

Can I come to you?
When I feel low
Will you lift me up?
And never let go

Can I tell you?
All of my secrets
Will you help me?
Safeguard it from the rest

Can I hear you say?
I love you
Will you treat me well?
Till the end and not sue

Can I see you cry?
Just to me
Will you let me be there?
To set you free

Can I know you more?
The whole of you
Will you be my friend?
From now on till the end

If you need me I'll be there
If you don't I don't care
The world is a better place to live in
If you can press on and not give in
Everybody wants their 15 seconds of fame
To get there survival of the fittest is the game
Play your part and play it fair
In the end you will get your share
Open your mind and envisage
Open your eyes to see the ridge
Give all that you have got
Sometimes I wish I never fought
Look out for new opportunity
Find it and your sure to glee
This is what needs to done
For all of us to have some fun

Oh lord my god
I feel real odd
To see people around me
Who wouldn’t let me be
I lost many friends
The minute they knew Jesus is my trend
How it hurts me to see
These people who fail to see you as the key
They dislike me
They tell me it’s impossible to be sin free
With you by my side
I will shine with pride
I pray in and out
Lord for you alone I will sing aloud
I was blessed to hear you say
That I will carry your burden and pay
Thank you for your message
I feel as if I’ve been set free from a cage
My heart will seek out for your face
That forever will be my case

Praise be unto the lord
Who has worked miracles upon us
Praise his holy name
For he has helped us win the game
He has healed us
He has released his mighty power
Only to shower us with his blessings
For he is our strong tower
For this Easter god made sure
That we heard his message of cure
We were touched and we were healed
As for me and my friends
All we did was kneel
We gave him thanks of praise
For he is full of grace
Always ready to hear us out
Thank you lord for sending us an anointed preacher
Thank you for your message our wonderful teacher
We forever will worship you
We are your selected few
Who will always run to you
We surrender to you oh Lord
We give you our lives
We worship you with all our hearts
We will spread your words in different parts
Be with us dear Lord
Help us reach out to the crowd.

Emotions running wild
I feel so confused inside
What seemed like fun before
Has been wiped off the shore
I can't understand on what's happening
I just hope he ain't gaming
I thought it was a start of a new beginning
Who am I kidding?
I am just a fool who has been dreaming
I don't have a clue on what's on the other side
I was rejoicing like an idiot with a lotta pride
I think I've to distance myself from such emotions
It's useless trying to make friends with passion

Ever believed in miracles
That could bring about a change in your life
Thinking of it now I chuckle
To see the difference I make in someone else’s life
Someone special crossed my path
Right when I was under someone’s wrath
I’m amazed at the instant bond
I’m speechless I’m stunned
With heart of diamond and words of gold
A pearl of a person, really bold
This is a miracle that I cherish
For this one has made my worries perish
A wonderful entry into my barren life
Has added yet another chapter to make things right
I don’t know what to expect out of this
But I’m sure I won’t end up giving it a miss
Let me see what’s in store for me
Hopefully things will be alright and I‘ll be free.

Oh!! Well am back with another article, this time am going discuss on the topic of “Try and you will succeed”. I’ve heard “famous” people say this before but never believed in it. Come on now give me a break here, I have been trying hard to succeed in a lot of areas of my life and somehow I feel I am quite not there until last evening. Yeah baby!

I guess for the first time in a long time I felt success yesterday after trying for hours. What am I saying? I am just too caught up, let me explain. Yesterday, at work I had an important task that I had to complete. It was more of a deadline kind of a thingy. I am currently working on a research study on the European man guard market and yesterday I had to call up The Netherlands. I had been calling like for 2 hours straight and no luck. I walked in at 8:30 in the morning and it was like 4 when I started my calls (Don’t panic, I did do some other “official” work in-between). Anyways, so there I was sitting and basically breaking my head, getting all worked up and irritated (not only people refused to give their interviews but my team kind of fell short in having to write awards) How short? Well, we had to submit 4 awards this month and we fell short by not a big margin, we fell short of 4 awards! And my only hope was this one person from Belgium who can possibly be a nominee for an award, but I didn’t receive his email in over a weeks time and for the kind of state I was in, I lost the little hope that I had.

Then something happened. Yes, it’s a miracle I know lol but it happened. There was this one person who was willing to help me out and he not only gave me the information I needed but he answered all of my questions without any kind of hesitation. Now, how cool is that. So I felt a little no actually a lot better. As, I was about to end the call I receive a mail. Yes, right again it was the mail I was waiting for. If your thinking how lucky she can get. Think again because I don’t think this was luck.

Only because I tried without giving up did I get the interview that I needed. You might ask me, why then did I consider this a miracle earlier? I did that because I believe that it was because of my perseverance. I don’t intend to sound so philosophical but am sure many will agree with me on this one and those of who you don’t feel free to leave your comments. :-)

What I am trying to say here is that I learnt something yesterday. It is not that only if you gain stardom or popularity can you say that you tried and that’s how I succeeded. It applies to every single person and every single action you perform. It’s only because I was willing to make the calls did I somehow end up speaking to atleast one person who was being so informative, and this happened only because I tried. Now am not going to get awarded or praised in my office for this. Why? Because it’s my job and this is what I have to do. But I felt so content and felt a sense of accomplishment in helping my team in every which way possible. And I felt even happier when I had my loved ones feeling ecstatic about it.

I realized all this when I was on the bike with Archana K C ( one of my dear freinds), I even told her that this is what I am going to put up on my blog next. So people out there even the little things you do on a day to day basis will make you feel a winner when you sit back and realize what you have accomplished. So try and try you will succeed does work! Catch y'all on my next post. B4N!

Cheers!
Love
Tee

There's so much do
There's so much to say
There are so many things
That's here out today
I wish I could be the star
That shines brightly from afar
I try so hard to instigate
You don’t have to under estimate
Seek for the potential inside of you
Come out of the dark
Let the light shine through you
You don’t have to be afraid
To be all that you are
Know in your heart
That you’re the diamond and the star
Tell the world that you’ve made the start
Let them know that you’re playing your part
Leave the past behind you
You blue-eyed girl
You will see all evil crumble and curl
Be bold and be strong
Let this world now hear your song

It’s early morning, and she wakes up
Makes some bread and then she packs up
She brushes her hair and wears her shoe
Come on now, let me drop you
She goes for work and checks her files
She feels so tired after walking those miles
She still enjoys what she does
Come on now, what’s the fuss?
Friends come home and we party all night
Eat some chips and start a pillow fight
They are my world and it’s full of light
Come on now, join the flight
Take me to a place where the sun don’t set
Take me high so I reach the sky
My dreams and wishes will get satisfied
Come on now, stay alive
Every day belongs to us
Come on now, let’s take the bus
Let me show you around and then you’ll see
That there are so many of us
Longing to be like you or me

Oh no, Here we go again
Don't start, don't be such a pain
I know what your upto
And am sick of all that you do
You say that you love me
But do you?
I don't need this
Because I can see right through you
You're no good
Trust me when I say this
You're absurd
And this is something that I heard
If you say, you love me
Why can't you treat me right
If you say, you care
Why do we fight
Oh no, Something ain't right
Don't start lets just not fight
You tore me apart
With your harsh words
And now you're a free bird
You're no good
Trust me when I say this
You're absurd
And this is something that I heard
I don't know what is happening
You just are so damn frightening
I need to get away from here
And start afresh without you
Being anywhere near.

There she was looking at me
With roses in her hands
That was given by me
Yeah, she’s my girl
We had a tiff
Now, am just wondering what else to gift
I keep pacing up and down
And every time I look at her
She just frowns
It’s Valentine’s Day today
And I made her sad
Let me do something
To make her glad
I think, I think, I think real hard
And I came up with an idea
Wow, I am smart
I quickly sat down to write a song
Just so I and my sweetheart can sing along
I slowly walk toward her
As she looks around
I hold her close to me
And I sing a song
You are my valentine
And I love you
Don’t feel angry, don’t feel blue
Am sorry for making you upset
I know that’s wrong
I accept my mistake
You accept my song
You are my valentine
And I love you
Don’t feel angry, don’t feel blue.

Hey,
I read your Blog….Keep up the great work of being real and letting Jesus shine through you. Some Christians get so preachy that we don’t seem real to people which only turns people off. They need to know that we are real and that, yes, we struggle with issues too, but we have someone that will help us through all of our struggles. We should all have a goal of helping people that suffer and coming against injustice. We need more Christian like you!
God Bless You!
Pastor John Marvin

Hi people, firstly, thank you all for your comments on my first article. I really appreciate y’all taking time out to read it. This has encouraged me to go ahead and write my second one. I mostly concentrate on topics that can make an individual think. Am not saying that he has to act on it, but I believe that thinking is the first step before someone jumps into action. Agreed? Well, for my second topic I decided to talk on the subject of “Love”. Now, wait am not referring to the romantic shade of it but Love as a whole. Let me ask you, how many of us actually take time out to let your loved ones know that you really care for them? Answer, sadly not many. We don’t realize the impact this can have on a person.

I have in my life time come across various people, different race, color and religion. Well who hasn’t? Anyways, now not everyone I meet leave a mark on me but, most of them did. If you ask a close friend of mine he will tell you that I call all my friends as my close friends.

Years back, I took a major leap of faith and I moved away from the ones who betrayed me (friends). Nope, am not complaining about it because the 2 months of isolation I went through made me realize the value of letting your loved ones know that you care. I felt so lost and unloved. I was in disbelief that my own friends can actually be so cruel. Time passed, I made new friends but I was always haunted by my past. I found it difficult to cope up; somewhere down the line I always thought these friends would betray me as well. But, they all contributed in making me believe that they are there for me no matter what. And that made me feel loved.

Every human alive will agree with me that it is important to show some love to your loved ones. Be it love from a mother to her child, brother to a sister or a boy friend to his girl friend or whoever. I will not deny the fact that everyone expresses their love. Am not here to debate on how much you have to or how often you have to express your love. Am just asking you “if your loved ones know that you love them no matter what”? Many of us, am sure have felt that we should have shown this person a little more love or treated him/her a little better. I have felt it. But, by the time I even realized this I had lost the person for good. So, I decided to show my love for people I love with every chance I get. It makes me feel special when I have people tell me how important I am to them and how much they love me.

Do you know that, with just your loving words, you can put a smile on a sad face and heal a broken heart? Try it and you will see. You might be the busiest man on planet earth but if you have someone who is longing for your love don’t be too busy in letting them know u care. Because you might be busy loving what you do and they might be busy loving you (take it in the right sense). Am not saying that that’s all they do.

If you have a loved one waiting to hear from you, don’t think twice to call him or her. Spend time with your loved ones every chance you get. But, don’t miss out on the “other” things that are a part of your life. At the same time if you not getting the attention that you feel you should get. Don’t go asking for it. You are worth so much more. Also, stop to think if you’re treating those that are in your life correctly.

When you’re away from your loved one, be it whether you’re in your college or your work place or just hanging out with your bunch of friends, make an attempt to at least call or text your loved ones, a simple hi will make him/her feel special and wanted. After going home spend time with your family, find out what happened at home when you weren’t around. These are few things that you can do. I get busy once am at work but I make sure that I let my loved one know that am thinking about him with may be a call or a message.

I have seen cases where the opposite party doesn’t even react properly when he/she receives a call from a loved one. Maybe your busy maybe your not but don’t ever take things for granted. If you were unable to react properly due to unavoidable circumstances just let your loved one know that you were caught up in a situation that forced me to react this way. And when a loved one calls you, talk to him/her properly, avoid giving away signs like you aren’t interested in talking to him/her because, that could hurt.

Everyone in this world wants to love and be loved. When you have an opportunity to show it to some one don’t be a fool to miss out on it. Never let a person who is counting on you for your affection, love or care, down. They want it from you because you make them feel special. Be happy that there is someone who is longing for you, waiting for that one call or message from you. Please, do not think twice to let your loved once know that you care.

Love
Tee

How many of us here know what our purpose in life is? How many of us can boldly or rather confidentially say that I know what my purpose in life is? Sure, you can tell me that you found your purpose in life; you can tell me that you’re a successful business man or an ace student or whatever. But that doesn’t mean that you have discovered your purpose in life or does it? I mean I can relate to all of the above listed things, its just that I would call it a responsibility and not a purpose. I asked myself the same question and the answer is I didn’t have a clear vision or rather an insight of my life’s purpose (until 2005 dec). How can one determine his or her purpose in life? Now, am not saying that by the end of this article you will know what your life’s purpose is but am sure that it will at least make you think about it.

I never really gave a thought about this until December of 2005 when my life was transformed for the better. Never did I believe in the strange ways of God to instill a purpose into every one of us. Trust me when I say this each of us have a purpose we just have to dig deep to find out what that purpose is. Now, the question is how do I do that? I don’t know if there is one correct way to discover these things but I can tell you how I, found my purpose in life. Time after time you might have come across situations that could grip your heart and question god. In my case it was people, right from my young age I was able to connect with the ones who were hurt in life. I always had an urge to go out and be there for them in all ways possible. When I was in school we (friends and I) decided to visit an old aged home. I admit that this was not something we wanted to do. It was Diwali and we wanted to do something different and when this thought cropped up we decided to give it a ago. It was a meaningless act if you ask me. We were just caught up in the moment. So, we landed in this place handed over the “stuff” you know the sweets, clothes etc…to the management and then we decided to spend time with the “senior citizens”.

This was the turning point of my life. One little conversation with a grandpa affected me so much that it bought tears to my eyes. Soon, we left the place and as always my friends and I gathered up in the terrace to discuss on “the other” things. This experience for me was like a passing cloud because I felt at that time there was really nothing that I could offer these people and slowly I distanced myself from the entire episode. Years passed, I grew, and I no longer had the friends I used to. I was going through a rough patch in my life. I guess this is the time when every girl questions “Am I a woman or a girl”? Things took a sharp turn in my life and before I knew it I felt my inner energy was tapped. I could hear a voice cry out to me. I have never felt this way before. I felt so strong and empowered and it was during this time that I asked myself this question Tina, What is the purpose in your life? A quick flash back and once again tears filled my eyes. I realized that at that time I made the grandpa feel wanted. I made him feel that I was looking out for him and that I cared to spend Diwali with him for that little time. I realized that the meaningless act was not so meaningless anymore and after all those years my heart felt content. I realized that my purpose in life was to be there for the one’s who are hurt, for the ones who just needed that special attention, hear them out and give them the boost they need to stand up and get going. Now just because I do this doesn’t mean my life is a bed of roses. I have my share of problems and I at times break down. But, that doesn’t stop me from being there for others.

I have had people come up to me and ask “how can you possibly be there for others when you can’t be there for yourself”. Well I really don’t have an answer to that and I really don’t care how , I don’t even have to justify it because I know in my heart I’m doing what is right and more importantly am doing what is right without hurting anybody. Now, that I found my purpose I have put that into action. I may not be carrying this out on a major scale or level but I am doing it in every little way possible.

If today you have decided to find out what your purpose in life is make sure that you line up your purpose with your ability, needs and desires. Make the choice and be the difference is.


Love,
Tina

Baby, it’s alright take it easy
Now don’t you worry I can see
I need you like crazy
And it’s not just my fantasy
Carry me in your arms
Touch me with your palms
Let me there for you
At times of trouble
Let us sit together and burst those bubbles
You know that I’ll be there
If you should need me
They why worry honey
We got each other and can take on things together
I need you to realize
That this ain’t a game of cat and mice
I will not hide nor will I make promise that I can’t keep
I won’t be the cause for your disturbed sleep
Because I need you like crazy

There's something about you
That makes me wanna cry
I know that you are the one
Who's gonna be there till I die
You gave me hope
When I was left with none
Now all of a sudden it's all fun
With each passing day
My happniess grows
And now I can handle everything
That my enemies throw
Without you in me
I can't find noway
I still wonder if this is what
You've got to say
I'm what I am b'coz of you my dear
I'll do anything
I give you my word do not fear
I'll be forver your lovely girl
Hold on to me and never let me go
Lets stay together and take things slow.